how do you view this world and do you enjoy living in it? why do you like or dislike it?
I'm asking because I was just watching anime vids and at some point, a few tears fell down my face lol. I stopped and wondered what exactly the reason was and I realized it's because I feel trapped in this world shaped by other people's rules and preferences... I don't like that, I wish I could be healthy, young, and beautiful.. just free to do what I love, what I choose, but I understand that it is what it is and I can only take what I can get and do the best I can with it... it still saddens and frustrated me tho... the fake and shallow people, the pointless jobs and meaningless conversations we waste our days on... I feel like everything is being wasted away, but it's also up to me isn't it? I should change the things that I can change to get closer to a world more like the one in my dreams...this world is full of bright and beautiful things like animals and nature, and all kinds of wonderful people, but I keep having to try so hard to remind myself of that because, somehow, it all gets swept away by all the things that make me jaded and sick.. I've come a long way though, I'll continue to try.. hehe