Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (10 Viewers)

[Willow]

I will be honest with you. I don’t really feel good recently ... too much stress and too much pressure. Also I sleep really bad for a few days now ...

 

[kodoku]

I will be honest with you. I don’t really feel good recently ... too much stress and too much pressure. Also I sleep really bad for a few days now ...

so many people around me and even online have been feeling bad, it sucks.... i'm no exception either.. i hope you can take care of yourself through this, and feel better soon..

 

[Willow]

so many people around me and even online have been feeling bad, it sucks.... i'm no exception either.. i hope you can take care of yourself through this, and feel better soon..

I hope that it will pass soon ...

 

[Willow]

My heart is confused as well recently ... Don’t know if I am in love or not

 

[wayvoutsold]

My heart is confused as well recently ... Don’t know if I am in love or not

I understand how you feel. Ask yourself these questions: How much do you like this person? How do you think they would react if you told them you love them? Are you ready to commit part of your life to this person?
No matter what you choose, I know you will choose what’s best for you.

 

[Willow]

I understand how you feel. Ask yourself these questions: How much do you like this person? How do you think they would react if you told them you love them? Are you ready to commit part of your life to this person?
No matter what you choose, I know you will choose what’s best for you.

I am not that ready yet I guess ... I have never been in a relationship before and I have litterally no experience

 

[wayvoutsold]

I am not that ready yet I guess ... I have never been in a relationship before and I have litterally no experience

Neither have I, but I have fallen in love before and sometimes those questions help me.

 

[Willow]

Neither have I, but I have fallen in love before and sometimes those questions help me.

I have fallen in love only once, but I can’t remember what feelings I had for him :/

 

[kodoku]

My heart is confused as well recently ... Don’t know if I am in love or not

maybe give yourself some time and try to get to know that person a bit better for now

As the year winds down, and now that the days are cold and dark, let us all strive to be good to one another. It's so easy to be sucked into a void of regret and despair as the march of time sucks us in and forces us to march in step, but we have each other for warmth and comfort. Do not go gently into the new year. Go forth with a mighty roar. Walk hand-in-hand, and together we will embrace the light of a brighter tomorrow <3

beautifully said, as always <3

 

[Willow]

maybe give yourself some time and try to get to know that person a bit better for now

I agree with you ... I should be more patient

 

[potato]

As the year winds down, and now that the days are cold and dark, let us all strive to be good to one another. It's so easy to be sucked into a void of regret and despair as the march of time sucks us in and forces us to march in step, but we have each other for warmth and comfort. Do not go gently into the new year. Go forth with a mighty roar. Walk hand-in-hand, and together we will embrace the light of a brighter tomorrow <3

what a beautiful piece of writing <3

 

[potato]

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I've been having these nightmares lately, which involve animals getting tortured... I don't know why. Just last night, I had this nightmare that I was in this asian market and they had brought out this big platter of steamed fish to eat. It looked so sad to me. Everyone was talking about other stuff and goofing off. And then the fish moved its head. It looked around sadly, dazed, like it didn't know what was going on. In its eyes I could somehow see the agony it was in at having been cooked... I could see it screaming internally, begging just to die. It took some tiny, pitiful sips from the sauce it was bathed in, as if hoping it would give it the same sustenance as water, perhaps not realizing that that sauce had been made from its own body... or knowing it all along. Still nobody payed attention. I started to point at it and tell everyone how wrong this is, and then the fish finally died and I woke up.

I still vividly remember the other few nightmares like this. I've been so zombified lately. And I had a mental breakdown a few days ago and thought about killing myself. That situation has improved, but I still worry it's going to happen again soon. I don't know. I'm tired.

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That seems so scary. I hate having nightmares too because they tend to be so vivid (more so than the normal ones) and we end up remembering them a lot better too. I once had a dream where I was outside my house and this man was chasing me. He was moving so slowly so I could have easily overtaken him but my legs felt like lead and I could barely walk. I was limping across a big, empty road and I remember it being a road which my mother never told me to cross because it was a dangerous road. I was only 7 or 8 when I had the dream but I can remember it so vividly almost a decade later. I woke up just as the man was less than a metre away from me.

I always think of these dreams as signs or symbolisms for something happening in our lives. I often don't see much of a correlation between real life and my dreams often but it feels weird to think that we have them for absolutely no reason at all.

I went off on a little tangent there xd. Back to your post, I hope you're not too shaken up by the dream TT

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I've cried so much over the last 24 hours that I actually feel numb. I have the worst headache, and I don't even want to go outside today. I don't care if it sounds stupid anymore but M*nsta X has helped me so much with my mental health so to see all of this happen is making me crumble. I can't cope. I have no one who will understand how I'm feeling. My support system is basically non-existent, not just with this situation, but in general. I can't cope with anything anymore I'm so devastated and upset and dealing with that on top of my existing anxiety disorder is just too much I really can't do this I can't

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I can understand how you're feeling. So much as been happening this past year, I've completely broken down and started crying a couple of times this month too. I just want you to know that you're not alone and we can all get through this together. As kpop fans, we're fighting as much as we possibly can because we have all had enough. We don't want anything like this to happen ever again.

Make sure to take care of your health as well. You're important too <3

 

[potato]

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Thank you for sharing your dream, it makes me feel not so alone c: I'm sorry you had it, though. That sounds awful. And I was still a bit shaken up about it, but then my dog Sparky passed away, and now I know what those nightmares were about... And that's the thing that's on my mind now. It only happened recently, but there's already such a big hole in my life now. Things aren't the way they used to be. And it feels so permanent. So sudden and blunt...

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Oh my goodness, you poor thing :c She/he must have meant so much to you. When someone important in our lives passes away or has something terrrible happen to them, we can't help but feel numb because they meant so much to us. I know that nothing is going to make you happier but I want you know to know that I'm always here if you need someone to talk to about your feelings. I can't fill the whole in your heart but I can provide comfort and warmth with a few words <3

 

[Kelly]

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it's not stupid if it meant something to you, no one but you decides that and no one has the right to judge. I'm very sorry for how things are. It may not be much, but I support you, I am here for you...... please stay strong <3

Thank you so much <3 That's reassuring to hear. Because I'm in a vulnerable state at the moment, I'm worrying even more about what other people think.. I'll keep your kind words in mind and I'll try my best to stay strong <3

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I can understand how you're feeling. So much as been happening this past year, I've completely broken down and started crying a couple of times this month too. I just want you to know that you're not alone and we can all get through this together. As kpop fans, we're fighting as much as we possibly can because we have all had enough. We don't want anything like this to happen ever again.

Make sure to take care of your health as well. You're important too <3

Thank you so much <3 Yeah, 2019 has been an eventful and emotionally draining year, especially October which was.. On another level. Over the last few days, I've found comfort in how hard Kpop fans are fighting for change and it's making me feel a little bit less dreadful about what's ahead. So hopefully all these bad things won't be repeated.. I hope you are okay though. You're not alone either. Let's both stay strong and take care of ourselves <3

 

[melancholia]

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I feel as if I'm being devoured by a black hole. To the onlookers, everything is going slow, but from my perspective, everything is going fast. it's as if I'm alone even if I'm surrounded by a million people i feel a deep pit of loneliness in me that is preventing me from being me. I'm not a who i used to be i am a shell from my former self. I've been having some emotional conflicts, problems at home, problems at school, and problems within me. I just want help, but atlas everything comes with a price. My motivational levels are Marina's Trench. Everything has become a challenge, even writing. I am shifting back in forth between reality and between my space. Reality can be a nice place but I don't want to be there, I don't want to be anywhere.

As I'm writing this I am realizing that no one will care.

 

[kodoku]

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I feel as if I'm being devoured by a black hole. To the onlookers, everything is going slow, but from my perspective, everything is going fast. it's as if I'm alone even if I'm surrounded by a million people i feel a deep pit of loneliness in me that is preventing me from being me. I'm not a who i used to be i am a shell from my former self. I've been having some emotional conflicts, problems at home, problems at school, and problems within me. I just want help, but atlas everything comes with a price. My motivational levels are Marina's Trench. Everything has become a challenge, even writing. I am shifting back in forth between reality and between my space. Reality can be a nice place but I don't want to be there, I don't want to be anywhere.

As I'm writing this I am realizing that no one will care.

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relatable, you're really not alone feeling like this and there will always be at least one person who will care. I'm very sorry you've been feeling like this.. it's okay not to be the way you used to be though, change is natural and sometimes ends up being good, who knows. Let yourself change, you might blossom in the end even if it doesn't feel like it. Stay strong, we're here with you <3

 

[dark_tranquility]

My dream state keeps getting worse and my dreams in general, keep harassing me.
Like what is real and what isn't? I cannot tell anymore.

And now I am afraid of dying more than ever (chicken heart)
I just feel like I am living a nightmare that never ends.

Kind of freddy kruger ish as well with how they remain real afterward still.

Hallucinative acid trips the doctor says with colour focus of another mental health thing.
don't know how to spell it. But living LSD trips make no sense to me.

 

[JoanaIsHere]

Lol know what sucks is when you can tell your not wanted in your friend group. I texted my friend on Snapchat 2 hours ago and she won’t even up it but she’ll text on the group chat. I checked when she was last active on the map and it says she’s on right now. Another friend gives me that feeling she’s doesnt like me because I’ll talk to her and she’ll look at me and then turn around. Only one friend is normal but we’re not really close lol. They’ll only talk to me when they don’t have anybody else to talk to. I want to make friends who want me around but I only to a school of 200 students, 30 each class so I can’t. I feel like crying right now. I also have and had high anxiety lately so I’m overthinking a lot of stupid stuff that won’t happen. They all act like nothings happening though so I can’t tell if I’m overthinking

 

[MinSquishy]

Spoiler: I've been going back into my spiral...

Over the last few days, I've been feeling like I've slowly been retreating back into my spiral. I've been thinking a lot about my aunt and friend (who both took their lives) and wanting to cry but I can't. The tears won't come. I've been feeling like I've been letting my friends down and that I'm a disappointment. When I've tried to hint a bit at the situation, people seem to shun me off. I can't find my place anymore. I feel like I stick out in a crowd because people seem to stare. I don't even know them. I've slowly lost my emotions again and I can't laugh at the same joke that me and my friend have been making for years. I feel like I can't take this life anymore. I can't seem to see my purpose here anymore. It is a year and a half since the last time I've done things to myself but I feel like I won't make it to two years. I don't mean to make this depressing but it has been weighing on me and I keep trying to hide it behind a smile and jokes to make people laugh. I can't seem to connect with people anymore.
Sometimes I feel like I should get help but I can't seem to bring myself to do it and I think it won't help. They haven't stopped me from getting dragged back in to my spiral. I can't seem to write anymore and I can't seem to keep up with anything. My grades have been slipping and it stresses me out on top of that. I hate to be fake for people but I don't want people fawning over me saying 'OMG ARE YOU OK?' No I'm not ok. I can't be ok. I've tried. I just can't. I'm sorry KPS...

 

[kodoku]

My dream state keeps getting worse and my dreams in general, keep harassing me.
Like what is real and what isn't? I cannot tell anymore.

And now I am afraid of dying more than ever (chicken heart)
I just feel like I am living a nightmare that never ends.

Kind of freddy kruger ish as well with how they remain real afterward still.

Hallucinative acid trips the doctor says with colour focus of another mental health thing.
don't know how to spell it. But living LSD trips make no sense to me.

sounds really scary, I'm sorry.. I hope you're taking care of yourself as much as you can.. <3

Lol know what sucks is when you can tell your not wanted in your friend group. I texted my friend on Snapchat 2 hours ago and she won’t even up it but she’ll text on the group chat. I checked when she was last active on the map and it says she’s on right now. Another friend gives me that feeling she’s doesnt like me because I’ll talk to her and she’ll look at me and then turn around. Only one friend is normal but we’re not really close lol. They’ll only talk to me when they don’t have anybody else to talk to. I want to make friends who want me around but I only to a school of 200 students, 30 each class so I can’t. I feel like crying right now. I also have and had high anxiety lately so I’m overthinking a lot of stupid stuff that won’t happen. They all act like nothings happening though so I can’t tell if I’m overthinking

that kind of stuff always sucks geez.. you certainly deserve friends who will treat you well.. being on your own sucks, but i think being around people toxic for you is even worse. Maybe give it some time and if it stays the same, talk to them.. good luck <3

Spoiler: I've been going back into my spiral...

Over the last few days, I've been feeling like I've slowly been retreating back into my spiral. I've been thinking a lot about my aunt and friend (who both took their lives) and wanting to cry but I can't. The tears won't come. I've been feeling like I've been letting my friends down and that I'm a disappointment. When I've tried to hint a bit at the situation, people seem to shun me off. I can't find my place anymore. I feel like I stick out in a crowd because people seem to stare. I don't even know them. I've slowly lost my emotions again and I can't laugh at the same joke that me and my friend have been making for years. I feel like I can't take this life anymore. I can't seem to see my purpose here anymore. It is a year and a half since the last time I've done things to myself but I feel like I won't make it to two years. I don't mean to make this depressing but it has been weighing on me and I keep trying to hide it behind a smile and jokes to make people laugh. I can't seem to connect with people anymore.
Sometimes I feel like I should get help but I can't seem to bring myself to do it and I think it won't help. They haven't stopped me from getting dragged back in to my spiral. I can't seem to write anymore and I can't seem to keep up with anything. My grades have been slipping and it stresses me out on top of that. I hate to be fake for people but I don't want people fawning over me saying 'OMG ARE YOU OK?' No I'm not ok. I can't be ok. I've tried. I just can't. I'm sorry KPS...

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awh i'm so sorry hun, no one deserve that...... i understand your feelings but please do try to open up and seek help, it might take some time but once it works out and you actually get it, things get at least a bit better.. it's okay to feel this way, but don't let go.. stay strong, there's much more ahead for you and we are here for you <3