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u know some time when i know no one see me i think about my life and cry. i did think about killing my self but i want it to be no pain but i could not find away. i try to run away but i want to go to collage. i know that people just stab other people in the back. no one understand me at all think about it make me cry i'm trying not to cry right now. i never told anyone this in real life cause i did once and people at my school pity event he people i tho was family hurt me right now the only thing i'm hang on is move to asia and finding some who really love me for me. but the love part is falling a part i wish i had a shoulder to cry in real life but u know this is online i use to be nice but u know tired of every thing. really i know it better if i disapper with out no one know. it the best for everyone. word hurt me more thaan any punch or kick that have been throw. i have been beat up a lot like a lootttt lot some place still hurt. like a spot on my neck still hurt from my little brother half brother beat me up when he mad at me. people in real world sterotype me as : strong but really i'm really gental and can break eazy my feeling can be hurt to. some time i just curl up in a dark a place and cry.really i hate myself for who i am. my dream i never going to come real i'm never going to get to china i don't even know why i haven't run away or just kill myself
 
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When your heart is hesitant, you can't expect people to understand that sensitivity because only you live with your mind and truly understand it. I've learnt that, and I won't get hurt anymore if no one understands but myself. I've lived my life up to this point and who knows to which point, without sensing my depression, loneliness and confusion have faded. As a child, I was always filled with curiosity and asked why instead of accepting several aspects of living. Now that I've grown up, I feel like these questions have stopped being sources for the adults to praise me for being able to think and speak so well, the way they did back then. I should stop pondering now that I'm an adult, because the beginning that started when I knew nothing could end me now. I'm an empty and lonely person. A lot about life feels pointless, and I just feel sorry to my family more than anything. I have these dangerous thoughts, if I was going to turn out like this, I would prefer if I didn't exist at all. If I was just going to put an end to it all along, I should've never been in the frame. My life really was meaningless.
Your existence is beautiful and needed though hun.... I'm glad you're alive <3

well i'm not that confident in my self is very low. Cause of people call me people say black people are strong well i'm kinda the opposite yeah my pain tolrent is high but word hurt me a lot really mentaly i'm not ok even tho i say i am really it cause know what this song will exsplan i not doing this to be funny like this is how i feel

look at the lyrics and you understand cause i can't really explan how i feel
Amazing song but I'm sorry you feel this way. Stay strong, things will come around..

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u know some time when i know no one see me i think about my life and cry. i did think about killing my self but i want it to be no pain but i could not find away. i try to run away but i want to go to collage. i know that people just stab other people in the back. no one understand me at all think about it make me cry i'm trying not to cry right now. i never told anyone this in real life cause i did once and people at my school pity event he people i tho was family hurt me right now the only thing i'm hang on is move to asia and finding some who really love me for me. but the love part is falling a part i wish i had a shoulder to cry in real life but u know this is online i use to be nice but u know tired of every thing. really i know it better if i disapper with out no one know. it the best for everyone. word hurt me more thaan any punch or kick that have been throw. i have been beat up a lot like a lootttt lot some place still hurt. like a spot on my neck still hurt from my little brother half brother beat me up when he mad at me. people in real world sterotype me as : strong but really i'm really gental and can break eazy my feeling can be hurt to. some time i just curl up in a dark a place and cry.really i hate myself for who i am. my dream i never going to come real i'm never going to get to china i don't even know why i haven't run away or just kill myself
It's okay, it's a beautiful and precious thing to be sensitive and the feeling of pain is what allows us to be kind to others, cherish that... I'm sorry about your hardships too
 
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What do you do when you find out one of the people you've looked up to for years now, whose videos had provided countless hours of joy and laughter and smiles during some of the darkest and most depressing years of your life, that were some of the very rare things that could do that...

What do you do when you find out, as verified by multiple sources, screen-caps, and even an entire professional article, that this man has now become a power-mad narcissist who lies about everything in order to paint himself as a hero amongst men and actively encourages his legions of fans to dox someone over a video someone made constructively criticizing him? To ruin their life, their career, threaten them with violence, find out where they live, where they go to school, who their friends and family are... There's even a screen-cap of one of his fans going to that criticism video on YouTube, threatening to out the video-maker as a "rapist," and the person all of these people are fans of leaves a comment under that threat simply saying, "Holy shit."

As in... "Holy shit, bro! That's the most evil thing I can imagine! HA! Keep doing it! Go, go, go!" He literally sees his fanbase going after this guy like a mob and all he can say is, "Holy shit."

There's more. A lot more. But none of you guys are into this community and know who all these people are that are involved, and I'm just venting anyway...

I'm so disappointed in this guy. He's a great musician. He's been a staple of the guitar community on YT for years and years and years now. But ever since he became a businessman and launched his own electric guitar company and got to be the boss of others, a switch must have gone off in his brain that made him realize, "Oh yeah, I'm a badass now. Look at me. Woo! I've got a wife now, I've got a kid, I've got a dog, I'm in two beloved bands, one of whom topped the UK rock charts at #1, everyone loves me... I'm now beyond reproach and f*** you all."

What makes me feel super dirty and icky and gross about all of this is that I actually supported him by buying one of his guitars. I thought up till now that I was giving back just a bit to this man who's helped me so much. And now I can't help but be disgusted by it. I just want to sell it off now.

I'm just so upset. How do you go from making a video like "Ways to stay artistically motivated and not lose faith in yourself and your dreams" to... all this?

So many people have made videos about you now, damning everything you've done and said. There's no hiding from it now. No more lying. This is your legacy now. Why did it have to come to this? I no longer want to be like you.
how disappointing, sorry bestie *hugs*
 
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I'm a whinny bitch, but anxiety has been causing me to faint few times and also feel nauseous,sleepless,unproductive. I tried going to pharmacy asking for meds and they all rejected me for not having a prescription. What a shame because if I tell a doctor about it my parents would find out as well... ig i'll just screw my exams up.
 
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I'm a whinny bitch, but anxiety has been causing me to faint few times and also feel nauseous,sleepless,unproductive. I tried going to pharmacy asking for meds and they all rejected me for not having a prescription. What a shame because if I tell a doctor about it my parents would find out as well... ig i'll just screw my exams up.
I'm so sorry.... sounds like such an impossible situation :(( please stay as strong as you can, I am here if you wanna talk .. <3
 

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Sometimes I think it's a good thing, that my family doesn't want to know about my life and mental health problems.
they can be so nasty about what they say to me too or other people.

I am gonna speed up my gp appointment and tell about how I am feeling with getting stuff. :( (I still feel so ugh bleh)
 
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Sometimes I think it's a good thing, that my family doesn't want to know about my life and mental health problems.
they can be so nasty about what they say to me too or other people.

I am gonna speed up my gp appointment and tell about how I am feeling with getting stuff. :( (I still feel so ugh bleh)
Same tbh, and I hope it goes well for you :)
 

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Same tbh, and I hope it goes well for you :)
It does, but it's always something negative going on with me, or the medicines I take.
It's almost never good lol
 

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I hope this time will be different then :sanapray:
One can only pray. All I can do.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia only a few years ago.
but then again I only started taking meds in 2007.

So no one really did anything about what I was going through at home, so I took charge and talked to someone.
 

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I really thought that I was doing good and would maybe even feel 100% better. For a little over a month now I've been on medication for my depression/anxiety and for the first few weeks it was really helping me feel calmer, not so quick to be anxious and I hardly ever had bad days. But for the last week and a half it's all back again, panic attacks, major meltdowns because I feel so overwhelmed and thoughts that I don't want to be having again. I just want to tell myself "Why can't you just be happy?" or "What's wrong with you?"... I'm constantly in a fight with myself, there's one side saying to just give up and that there's no hope but then the other side is saying you can do it, keep pushing up this mountain, take every day and every action as one little step to the top. My doctor told me last week that they'll probably have to increase the dosage of my medication but... I know medication helps people and for a short time it was helping me but I hate that I'm not strong enough without this medication, it makes me feel so hopeless.
 
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I really thought that I was doing good and would maybe even feel 100% better. For a little over a month now I've been on medication for my depression/anxiety and for the first few weeks it was really helping me feel calmer, not so quick to be anxious and I hardly ever had bad days. But for the last week and a half it's all back again, panic attacks, major meltdowns because I feel so overwhelmed and thoughts that I don't want to be having again. I just want to tell myself "Why can't you just be happy?" or "What's wrong with you?"... I'm constantly in a fight with myself, there's one side saying to just give up and that there's no hope but then the other side is saying you can do it, keep pushing up this mountain, take every day and every action as one little step to the top. My doctor told me last week that they'll probably have to increase the dosage of my medication but... I know medication helps people and for a short time it was helping me but I hate that I'm not strong enough without this medication, it makes me feel so hopeless.
That's okay. You are a living being so yes, your health may not be perfect but you can still live a happy life. You are not hopeless. Keep pushing on and try not to listen to your demons... Things can change, things can still be okay and I'm always here if you need to talk <3
 

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That's okay. You are a living being so yes, your health may not be perfect but you can still live a happy life. You are not hopeless. Keep pushing on and try not to listen to your demons... Things can change, things can still be okay and I'm always here if you need to talk <3
Thank you :nekolove:
 

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Been sort of depressed and my self esteem combines with that as a consequence.
I just feel like nothing is fun anymore in my life and everything remains the same, no matter what I do.
 

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Please keep pushing on.. I believe things will change again
I feel better now, after I do some creative art or tune to music.
Otherwise I just have the regular 'off' days.

Overthinking more than likely is the cause and my imagination re-gaining control.
 

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