u know some time when i know no one see me i think about my life and cry. i did think about killing my self but i want it to be no pain but i could not find away. i try to run away but i want to go to collage. i know that people just stab other people in the back. no one understand me at all think about it make me cry i'm trying not to cry right now. i never told anyone this in real life cause i did once and people at my school pity event he people i tho was family hurt me right now the only thing i'm hang on is move to asia and finding some who really love me for me. but the love part is falling a part i wish i had a shoulder to cry in real life but u know this is online i use to be nice but u know tired of every thing. really i know it better if i disapper with out no one know. it the best for everyone. word hurt me more thaan any punch or kick that have been throw. i have been beat up a lot like a lootttt lot some place still hurt. like a spot on my neck still hurt from my little brother half brother beat me up when he mad at me. people in real world sterotype me as : strong but really i'm really gental and can break eazy my feeling can be hurt to. some time i just curl up in a dark a place and cry.really i hate myself for who i am. my dream i never going to come real i'm never going to get to china i don't even know why i haven't run away or just kill myself