Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (131 Viewers)

[cocomelon]

honestly i wish someone would just kill me. i cant do it myself im not brave enough im not strong enough i wish someone else would just free me from this misery i wish someone would just please please please for once help me

 

[dark_tranquility]

so today i right in the morning i got mansplained by my apparent father. when i tried to tell him how i had developed insomnia and anxiety, he started laughing at me. that laugh was just the beginning of the series of hurtful taunts and comparisions that were made. he told me shit about what he did at my age and compared me to my super studious extra perfect cousin who is good at everything. it just made me feel so worthless. like im such a failure. all i asked for was a sense of acknowledgment of my depression, anxiety, constant suicidal and self harm thoughts but instead i got lectured down and compared to other people which made me feel even more of a failure than i already am

What a dick. He needs to educate himself.
I am sorry you had that exp.
Parents are so lame alot the time.

 

[cocomelon]

Spoiler: may be sensitive

like i wanna ask him, you compared me to my cousin, did his parents fight every single fucking day since his birth? did his father hit his mother right in front of him? did he have to see him getting beaten everyday just because his dad was mad at him? did he had to go through failures for most of his school life? did he had to go through near divorce stages 5 times? do you even realise the amount of trauma that you have burned down in my brain? the amount of fear i used to get whenever the word divorce came up. the shouting the screaming it was so horrible that i can not listen to loud noises without my heart racing, i get severly anxious. just. just. please.

 

[dark_tranquility]

Spoiler: may be sensitive

like i wanna ask him, you compared me to my cousin, did his parents fight every single fucking day since his birth? did his father hit his mother right in front of him? did he have to see him getting beaten everyday just because his dad was mad at him? did he had to go through failures for most of his school life? did he had to go through near divorce stages 5 times? do you even realise the amount of trauma that you have burned down in my brain? the amount of fear i used to get whenever the word divorce came up. the shouting the screaming it was so horrible that i can not listen to loud noises without my heart racing, i get severly anxious. just. just. please.

I hate getting yelled at by anyone, due to my father always used to do it.
It makes me afraid, not wanted and paranoid.
also he used to choke me as a kid.

 

[cocomelon]

I hate getting yelled at by anyone, due to my father always used to do it.
It makes me afraid, not wanted and paranoid.
also he used to choke me as a kid.

im so sorry you had to go through that. some people just dont deserve to be parents. theyre just so sick.

 

[dark_tranquility]

im so sorry you had to go through that. some people just dont deserve to be parents. theyre just so sick.

He apologised years later and we get along fine for the most part.
I didn't let it bother me, I had to be the bigger man.
I cannot hate or bare grudges on anyone,
Even those that hurt me.

 

[cocomelon]

I cannot hate or bare grudges on anyone,
Even those that

thats just you being the bigger and better person

 

[dark_tranquility]

thats just you being the bigger and better person

I wish the voices and colored spots in my vision disappeared
It always happens at night.

 

[cocomelon]

yk what yea enough is enough i can not and will not stand and keep seeing men like my father mentally and physically abuse their family and children being completely taken away from their childhood. im gonna sue this motherfucker when i grow up and i will make sure i help victims of domestic abuse and trauma and that of harassment from men as much as i can. it happened to me but i will not fucking let it happen to anyone else.

 

[cocomelon]

yk what yea enough is enough i can not and will not stand and keep seeing men like my father mentally and physically abuse their family and children being completely taken away from their childhood. im gonna sue this motherfucker when i grow up and i will make sure i help victims of domestic abuse and trauma and that of harassment from men as much as i can. it happened to me but i will not fucking let it happen to anyone else.

fuck you men and fuck your ego

 

[dark_tranquility]

fuck you men and fuck your ego

Some folks can't just let go of their stupid beliefs or their old fashioned ways.
It seems he is real immature for a parent and laughing at you, is what bullies do.
I think imo, he is very much a failure as a man and parent.

 

[cocomelon]

I think imo, he is very much a failure as a man and parent.

oh i agree so much. if you see him irl you’d know for sure.

 

[dark_tranquility]

oh i agree so much. if you see him irl you’d know for sure.

I wanna punch him if I saw him.

 

[cocomelon]

I wanna punch him if I saw him.

and i wouldnt stop u 😭🫂

 

[dark_tranquility]

and i wouldnt stop u 😭🫂

I punched someone in the nose who was bullying and you hear the snap of his nose breaking.
The principal separated us for 3 years.

 

[doll]

why should i apologize for hurting her?
she hit me first.
so i hit her back, of course i hit her harder than she hit me.
i cannot control it, it is not my fault.
she put me thru hell, she called me racial slurs and laughed about my ethnicity.
why should i fucking apologize.
she lied and said it wasnt her. who the fuck was it then?
are we gonna ignore how u sent me a snap of u saying "taimane is a n word" ... a video of it.
and i showed them, and they said "thats not valid proof".
not proof? not proof...??

 

[dark_tranquility]

Half and half. IDK which is worse.

 

[Chaeee]

I wish you would actually hear what I have to say instead of shutting me down. You are not a perfect person, just listen for once

 

[doll]

Spoiler: tw self harm ed suicide world issues

aquí estamos de nuevo, escribiendo una historia snob en español. lo que sea lo que sea. el mundo se esta acabando solo en mi mente, pienso en todo a la vez, pero de alguna manera sigo concentrado en lo mismo. como explico esto Estoy concentrado en todos los pensamientos, pensando en ellos, todos a la vez, y profundizando en tratar de describirlos y comprenderlos. todo en mi mente. pero aun no lo se Por eso digo que el mundo se acaba. mi mundo se acaba. Me siento tan muerta, pero cuando me muero de hambre y me muero, sé que estoy viva, sé que soy real, y sé que aún estaré aquí unos minutos más. cada vez que me corto, lo hago un poco más profundo, aunque apenas estoy cortando la capa de grasa. Si realmente quisiera podría, ¿por qué no? ¿Por qué no me he suicidado? ¿Por qué no tomé un frasco de aspirinas, me corté la muñeca y me ahogué... todo a la vez? para garantizar la muerte. flotar sobre mi cuerpo como un fantasma, como un alma, como algo que los demás no pueden ver. para flotar sobre mi cuerpo sin vida, golpeado. el único deseo que tengo. acaba con mi dolor, acaba con mi sufrimiento. No tengo miedo de suicidarme, lo tengo en mí. pero lo tengo en mi para escribir la nota? ¿Lo tengo en mí para sacarlos al público? oh sí, sí lo hago. la venganza es todo lo que quiero, y la venganza es todo lo que busco. y encontraré lo que busco, la venganza. la única respuesta muriendo, muriendo, muriendo, muerto. siria está ardiendo, irak ha sido bombardeado, el salvador ha caído y méxico es la definición de violencia de pandillas. los que pecan se arrepentirán. no soy pecador no de corazón mira mi cuerpo sin vida flotar en el agua por la que pagaste, pagaste a tu gobierno capitalista, mira a tu líder reírse al ver la guerra. Mírame destruirme por un chico.

 

[dark_tranquility]

totally not fun today