Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (7 Viewers)

[kodoku]

Sometimes I think a cycle is a toxic thing to me. Breaking a 7 year friendship with two leaves me confused and the damage they left with their comments makes me sometimes believe it's true. I don't mind being quarantined but I feel like I'm caged with my thoughts and they're grim and dark with an urge of making myself feel something. Through any means.

What is the purpose to exist when you don't want to exist? What is the purpose when I honestly feel I was just born because of someone's hormones. I feel ending that friendship that prodded my insecurities were the same questions I had about myself and the same critiques. I don't understand why I'm here. I'm very forgettable if I continued to be the last option to a friendship that long. It wasn't good for me but most don't find me worthy of anything except a body count.

Whoo Boy. I'm sorry this was so negative. I think quartine makes me dark and it helps ranting. Even if it can't be fixed in a day for me. Or a month..or a year.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way, That second part was very relatable. The way I look at it, I don't think our destiny is written in the stars or anything like that and you just take what you can get in life and do the best you can with it... even if we didn't ask to be here, the reailty is that we are and there are people who would be negatively affected if we died.. so the best thing to do is do try our best to be a decent person and live a decent life and along the way, you might meet some great people, see some amazing places, experience fascinating things...... and that's just what life is... keep going, there's still so much ahead. I hope you gain some energy and feel better soon, stay strong :)

No life outside of these walls anymore due to Corona.
I never had a life anyways, so there ya go.

I just wish people weren't so negative and the media wasn't.
It really impacts my mental health with their attitudes.

so true, what is it with this world.. :/ but I guess that quote is still true.. "be the change you wish to see...."

 

[dark_tranquility]

so true, what is it with this world.. :/ but I guess that quote is still true.. "be the change you wish to see...."

I change the world, one step at a time <3 That and drown into music. music makes me glad I am around to listen to it.

 

[Ahsoka]

After all my efforts to find a new psychiatrist the new one is worse than the old
Ffs ig I just have to deal with the old one instead, now I need to figure out how to tell my new one that I don't want to continue and that's so awkward. Why are all the good psychiatrists I've had impossible to meet with for so many reasons?

 

[kodoku]

After all my efforts to find a new psychiatrist the new one is worse than the old
Ffs ig I just have to deal with the old one instead, now I need to figure out how to tell my new one that I don't want to continue and that's so awkward. Why are all the good psychiatrists I've had impossible to meet with for so many reasons?

sorry to hear this, these things can be really tricky indeed.. I think you're making the right decision though and I'm sure your mom will understand that

 

[Ahsoka]

sorry to hear this, these things can be really tricky indeed.. I think you're making the right decision though and I'm sure your mom will understand that

My mom doesn't care, I'm the one who gets to make those decisions thankfully since I'm over 18

 

[kodoku]

My mom doesn't care, I'm the one who gets to make those decisions thankfully since I'm over 18

I'm sorry. But I am glad you can do what's right for you though

 

[missanneelk]

I don’t know how to come to terms with what happened to me. I was betrayed, put into a depressive state for days where none of them cared. Instead they are continuing to talk about me, talk behind my back. I can’t stand this anymore.

 

[kinnie]

Trapped and alone.

 

[kodoku]

I don’t know how to come to terms with what happened to me. I was betrayed, put into a depressive state for days where none of them cared. Instead they are continuing to talk about me, talk behind my back. I can’t stand this anymore.

I'm very sorry you're feeling this way. The feeling of knowing that people are talking about you in a bad way is so horrible too, I'm also currently dealing with this.. I hope you keep in mind that you're stronger than you know and that you will rise above this as well... please stay strong, you can talk to me if you'd like.. <3

Trapped and alone.

I'm sorry.. please know I'm here if you wanna talk, dear <3 and truthfully.. I feel the same way...

 

[kinnie]

I'm very sorry you're feeling this way. The feeling of knowing that people are talking about you in a bad way is so horrible too, I'm also currently dealing with this.. I hope you keep in mind that you're stronger than you know and that you will rise above this as well... please stay strong, you can talk to me if you'd like.. <3



I'm sorry.. please know I'm here if you wanna talk, dear <3 and truthfully.. I feel the same way...

Thank you.
I think I'm just going to go to sleep for a while.
That's one thing that's so great about sleeping.
You can't feel anything.

 

[kodoku]

Thank you.
I think I'm just going to go to sleep for a while.
That's one thing that's so great about sleeping.
You can't feel anything.

np hun :) I think that could be a good idea, resting your body and mind from these heavy feelings a little... I hope you fall asleep comfortably and have the sweetest dream <3

 

[kinnie]

I don't want to dream.

 

[kodoku]

I don't want to dream.

in that case, I wish you a clear mind and a comfy rest :)

 

[kinnie]

Thanks.

 

[gongchan]

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Not really feeling too hot today. It's almost been a year since my second attempt at taking my own life and it makes me sad I haven't come far from there. So much has changed in all this time, and I still don't know whether or not I'm happy to still be here.

 

[MinSquishy]

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Just figured out my 7 year old brother has the virus. He has a weak immune system and a high chance of dying from it.. I'm so scared. I don't want to lose my baby brother.

 

[kodoku]

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Not really feeling too hot today. It's almost been a year since my second attempt at taking my own life and it makes me sad I haven't come far from there. So much has changed in all this time, and I still don't know whether or not I'm happy to still be here.

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I'm so sorry you ever had to feel that way and that things came to that.. but I believe that every day you live on is a day you're being brave :)

p.s. I am happy you are still here <3

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Just figured out my 7 year old brother has the virus. He has a weak immune system and a high chance of dying from it.. I'm so scared. I don't want to lose my baby brother.

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I'm so sorry to hear that, I have no words... I'll pray for his health.. Please take care TT

 

[MinSquishy]

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I'm so sorry to hear that, I have no words... I'll pray for his health.. Please take care TT

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I'll try..

 

[honeyfornomoney]

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Just figured out my 7 year old brother has the virus. He has a weak immune system and a high chance of dying from it.. I'm so scared. I don't want to lose my baby brother.

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I hope he will be alright <3

 

[MinSquishy]

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I hope he will be alright <3

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I'm just scared he will find out. He's a smart one...