why does he still love me?
why does he still think im pretty?
why does he do anything he does?
why does he hold my hand even when hes holding back his own tears?
why did i not notice?
was i to focused on myself to not understand... that he was not okay either?
was i to focused on myself to not realize that all of my friends were leaving... because im crazy and toxic and because i only only only are about myself?
but he stayed.
i dont want to die anymore, not today, not tomorrow.
i hope i die with him, only with him.
even if i stay just a worthless body with a terrible mind, i hope he'll stay with me.