Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (16 Viewers)

[LeeriaYa]

So many voices, so much blocking out.
My god do I hate this.

You’re blocking them out and when you feel it’s struggling to break free to show you the silence you deserve and hear in it’s glory. Tell yourself that you will block them out and become louder in your own voice. The things the voices say to you are never real. When I hear them at times when I feel stressed and overwhelmed. I say how I can be stronger, and I can be everything the voices say they can’t. You’ve come so far down the road. You’re strong, wise, and beautiful to the world with your own voice. Make your voice heard more because that’s the one the world will appreciate with your qualities.

 

[athenaaa]

Being tired of all negativity is natural, and it should never feel as it’s something that causes an entire disturbance in our being. We must always acknowledge our inner workings of our mind, and heart. You have and if fighting for someone is the way to do it then that’s how you shall overcome it. Help is surprisingly a word that can seem beautiful, and yet terrifying at the same time because we wonder are we judged for not being able to overcome our fears, and anxieties. But you will, and you will come out stronger and know the blueprint on how your mind and body works. You have already accepted there is something wrong even with the help of someone. So cherish it and I hope you receive help. Remember you have already found a strong path to focus on to be more prepared and strengthen your mind each day. You need to also know you always should believe yourself unless you know you aren’t being honest. We never always know what’s effecting us until others see. But you are able to always detect what’s wrong, and what steps to take to start. I wish you luck. May a winter tell it’s story before it’s spring blooms.

Once my event is over, I’m planning on taking some time away from here to truly focus on myself. I’m going to seek the help I need, I feel like I can’t even control my own thoughts. I go from okay to angry/sad in a matter of seconds and I push that onto people who don’t even deserve it

 

[LeeriaYa]

It felt so weird having my mother call me to congratulate me for making the dean’s list. I’ve made it before multiple times but they always forget to add my name because I’ve gotten emails. But then she told me how proud she was of me and out of instinct I told her I’m surprised too. I learned to do everything on my own especially with all the physical, mental, sexual, and emotional abuse growing up.

It’s still strange to be praised by people. I still don’t find many people are honest, but maybe that’s an issue I’ll always have. I’m proud of my defenses even if it may screw me in the end.

 

[dark_tranquility]

You’re blocking them out and when you feel it’s struggling to break free to show you the silence you deserve and hear in it’s glory. Tell yourself that you will block them out and become louder in your own voice. The things the voices say to you are never real. When I hear them at times when I feel stressed and overwhelmed. I say how I can be stronger, and I can be everything the voices say they can’t. You’ve come so far down the road. You’re strong, wise, and beautiful to the world with your own voice. Make your voice heard more because that’s the one the world will appreciate with your qualities.

I feel weak and cannot fight it at times.
I am over burdened with mental fatigue.

 

[athenaaa]

It felt so weird having my mother call me to congratulate me for making the dean’s list. I’ve made it before multiple times but they always forget to add my name because I’ve gotten emails. But then she told me how proud she was of me and out of instinct I told her I’m surprised too. I learned to do everything on my own especially with all the physical, mental, sexual, and emotional abuse growing up.

It’s still strange to be praised by people. I still don’t find many people are honest, but maybe that’s an issue I’ll always have. I’m proud of my defenses even if it may screw me in the end.

Congratulations on deans list, thats such a huge accomplishment

 

[LeeriaYa]

Once my event is over, I’m planning on taking some time away from here to truly focus on myself. I’m going to seek the help I need, I feel like I can’t even control my own thoughts. I go from okay to angry/sad in a matter of seconds and I push that onto people who don’t even deserve it

You recognize it and it’s okay to accept that as a slight step for progress because even in multiple emergencies, and errors. We always know there’s something wrong. It took me awhile to even go to therapy, or even group. The biggest step is understanding you don’t like something about the way your mind thinks of these things in your life. You will keep going and find the help you need. There are people who do want you to receive help because they want you to feel at your best self. Take all the time you need and always put yourself first in these moments because even though it’s important we want to be the best for others. We’ll always have ourselves more before we can be the best. You’ll get there. This is a large blueprint to a beautiful idea. Everything starts with a blueprint before we reach the Most wonderful thing we can build in life. It’s okay to be angry, and sad at times. That’s why we go receive help. Because we know we don’t like always feeling it intensely.

 

[LeeriaYa]

Congratulations on deans list, thats such a huge accomplishment

Thank you. It’s still unusual to hear. It’s easy when you stay in your room studying, and only go out for a walk and fries

 

[athenaaa]

You recognize it and it’s okay to accept that as a slight step for progress because even in multiple emergencies, and errors. We always know there’s something wrong. It took me awhile to even go to therapy, or even group. The biggest step is understanding you don’t like something about the way your mind thinks of these things in your life. You will keep going and find the help you need. There are people who do want you to receive help because they want you to feel at your best self. Take all the time you need and always put yourself first in these moments because even though it’s important we want to be the best for others. We’ll always have ourselves more before we can be the best. You’ll get there. This is a large blueprint to a beautiful idea. Everything starts with a blueprint before we reach the Most wonderful thing we can build in life. It’s okay to be angry, and sad at times. That’s why we go receive help. Because we know we don’t like always feeling it intensely.

It took me a long time to finally admit that I need help, and even longer to actually do something about it. Years of trauma and abuse added up. And now that I have a healthy support system, I’m panicking. I feel so so guilty because sometimes when I get really bad, I’ll try to push away my girlfriend and she doesn’t deserve that. Imo she deserves the entire world. She’s the one I’m fighting for if I’m being truly honest. I attempted to overdose but failed, I just know though, I never want to get that close to death again. The reality is, I just want to escape the pain. The lies, they hurt. I wish people would understand the impact their words have and its not just some joke.

 

[athenaaa]

Thank you. It’s still unusual to hear. It’s easy when you stay in your room studying, and only go out for a walk and fries

Trust me I totally get it, I’ve been there. I got deans list last year and to hear my dad say congratulations totally threw me off. I’m the type who studys all the time and keeps to nyself pretty much. But your accomplishments are something to be so proud of. You are doing so well for yourself and I knkw it sounds weird to hear but you deserve the praise. Good job and keep up the hard work

 

[LeeriaYa]

I feel weak and cannot fight it at times.
I am over burdened with mental fatigue.

You’ll feel tired, and you’ll feel it’s effect. But you’re still speaking at the end of the day. It all takes time. I’m still the same. I feel it every morning, and every night. But what helps is finding something I can speak my voice in. A journal, diary, scrapbook, or even molding things. You deserve a rest that will help you through it all. But to understand and feel like you’re becoming louder is understanding. Not all fights we can last, but when we keep training. We get strong, and then our endurance lasts longer as well. Reward yourself for small things, and tell yourself that you deserve this. You want a little cupcake? Say you deserve it even to yourself. Why? Because you’ve gotten so far. You know you’re not at your best but knowing we will eventually reach our best. You are none of the things your brain tries to tell you are, and you none of the things an enemy states. Reward yourself and you’ll be able to reward yourself more one day when you realize you have done so much on your own. Take a long nap, buy something you love to eat, look at video’s of things you want to do. I believe in you that you will become louder than those voices that are saying things that are not you.

 

[LeeriaYa]

It took me a long time to finally admit that I need help, and even longer to actually do something about it. Years of trauma and abuse added up. And now that I have a healthy support system, I’m panicking. I feel so so guilty because sometimes when I get really bad, I’ll try to push away my girlfriend and she doesn’t deserve that. Imo she deserves the entire world. She’s the one I’m fighting for if I’m being truly honest. I attempted to overdose but failed, I just know though, I never want to get that close to death again. The reality is, I just want to escape the pain. The lies, they hurt. I wish people would understand the impact their words have and its not just some joke.

It’s scary, and it’s like humans are a bottle of glass that slowly becomes filled up with more water, mixtures, and things that dilute us. I’m sorry you attempted, but you’re still here which means this is something you can become farther from and overcome it again. It’s hard to escape what others say of us, but I find what helped me when I was going through it is knowing that wasn’t me. To be honest I’ve disliked myself, and I truly don’t care for myself at all. But there are moments I realize I am my best companion and the only one who can judge me is me. Words can hurt, but what hurts more is knowing we are not the things people say we are and believing them when they try to just throw ammo. Help is something that takes awhile to have but once you start you’ll realize how easier it becomes over time. Your trauma is what puts the thoughts in your head. I still deal with my trauma everyday. Vikki, is also a good person and she’s patient. She was a friend for me when I was a moderator and I went through mental heck because of it. You may feel bad that you push her away, but I know she understands what you’re going through and the biggest step is knowing you’re getting help for her but also yourself. The things your past have done to you do not define you. It only adds scars. We always need to accept that we’ll have them to anyone. But I always tell people think of a Mosiac. It may look like stained glass, but those are all colored shards pieced together to make a beautiful image after the process of gluing it all together. The light will come through and cast around others in a glittering light. Have patience with yourself because you have support on this journey and it’s only seen as difficult to someone because they think they’re alone. You are never alone and you have someone who supports you. Even I support you. Your friends, acquaintances, and others only want the best for you and will support you alongside getting help to get you at your best shape as a person.

 

[dark_tranquility]

You’ll feel tired, and you’ll feel it’s effect. But you’re still speaking at the end of the day. It all takes time. I’m still the same. I feel it every morning, and every night. But what helps is finding something I can speak my voice in. A journal, diary, scrapbook, or even molding things. You deserve a rest that will help you through it all. But to understand and feel like you’re becoming louder is understanding. Not all fights we can last, but when we keep training. We get strong, and then our endurance lasts longer as well. Reward yourself for small things, and tell yourself that you deserve this. You want a little cupcake? Say you deserve it even to yourself. Why? Because you’ve gotten so far. You know you’re not at your best but knowing we will eventually reach our best. You are none of the things your brain tries to tell you are, and you none of the things an enemy states. Reward yourself and you’ll be able to reward yourself more one day when you realize you have done so much on your own. Take a long nap, buy something you love to eat, look at video’s of things you want to do. I believe in you that you will become louder than those voices that are saying things that are not you.

Thanks a lot. I do need to claim my mind as my own.
Not listening to those voices.

 

[athenaaa]

It’s scary, and it’s like humans are a bottle of glass that slowly becomes filled up with more water, mixtures, and things that dilute us. I’m sorry you attempted, but you’re still here which means this is something you can become farther from and overcome it again. It’s hard to escape what others say of us, but I find what helped me when I was going through it is knowing that wasn’t me. To be honest I’ve disliked myself, and I truly don’t care for myself at all. But there are moments I realize I am my best companion and the only one who can judge me is me. Words can hurt, but what hurts more is knowing we are not the things people say we are and believing them when they try to just throw ammo. Help is something that takes awhile to have but once you start you’ll realize how easier it becomes over time. Your trauma is what puts the thoughts in your head. I still deal with my trauma everyday. Vikki, is also a good person and she’s patient. She was a friend for me when I was a moderator and I went through mental heck because of it. You may feel bad that you push her away, but I know she understands what you’re going through and the biggest step is knowing you’re getting help for her but also yourself. The things your past have done to you do not define you. It only adds scars. We always need to accept that we’ll have them to anyone. But I always tell people think of a Mosiac. It may look like stained glass, but those are all colored shards pieced together to make a beautiful image after the process of gluing it all together. The light will come through and cast around others in a glittering light. Have patience with yourself because you have support on this journey and it’s only seen as difficult to someone because they think they’re alone. You are never alone and you have someone who supports you. Even I support you. Your friends, acquaintances, and others only want the best for you and will support you alongside getting help to get you at your best shape as a person.

I do like your stained glass analogy. I just need to try to remember that despite how much those those words hurt, deep down I know they aren’t true. It does feel awful and the fact it just keep being brought up over and over again bothers me. Memories of my trauma keep coming up and I’m reliving them. I used to be a mod too, it does take a toll. Like don’t get me wrong, I really did enjoy it, but some days it became too much. And you’re right about her, she is so patient. But I’m loved just as I am and that means the entire world to me 😭

 

[doll]

tal vez esta noche, no tendré pesadillas.
sin pensar en nada, en los malos recuerdos de los buenos.
tal vez taimane finalmente sea feliz en su cabeza, en la mía. dondequiera que pueda estar.
somewhere far away from here, very far
porque la tumba no es para cerrar.
Love, Tai

 

[LeeriaYa]

tal vez esta noche, no tendré pesadillas.
sin pensar en nada, en los malos recuerdos de los buenos.
tal vez taimane finalmente sea feliz en su cabeza, en la mía. dondequiera que pueda estar.
somewhere far away from here, very far
porque la tumba no es para cerrar.
Love, Tai

Spoiler

Esto es muy poético. Pero estoy seguro de que dondequiera que estén están bien. Espero que tú también puedas sanar y darte cuenta de que mereces buenos sueños. Solo debes saber que esta persona es feliz dondequiera que esté y que todas las heridas se curan. Que tu sueño bendiga tu maravillosa alma y tu mente

if my Spanish failed and that’s why I use this spoiler.
This is very poetic. But I'm sure wherever they are they're fine. I hope that you too can heal and realize that you deserve good dreams. Just know that this person is happy wherever he is and that all wounds heal. May your sleep bless your wonderful soul and mind

 

[doll]

Spoiler

Esto es muy poético. Pero estoy seguro de que dondequiera que estén están bien. Espero que tú también puedas sanar y darte cuenta de que mereces buenos sueños. Solo debes saber que esta persona es feliz dondequiera que esté y que todas las heridas se curan. Que tu sueño bendiga tu maravillosa alma y tu mente

if my Spanish failed and that’s why I use this spoiler.
This is very poetic. But I'm sure wherever they are they're fine. I hope that you too can heal and realize that you deserve good dreams. Just know that this person is happy wherever he is and that all wounds heal. May your sleep bless your wonderful soul and mind

Gracias por tus palabras. Durmiendo para siempre
Love Tai

 

[dark_tranquility]

Mentality is not healthy.
Need to think for a second and recover.

 

[LeeriaYa]

Therapy doesn’t really feel it’s helping me as much anymore. Talking about the sexual abuse feels like I just keep pushing it down, and hoping it doesn’t resurface.

 

[cocomelon]

Therapy doesn’t really feel it’s helping me as much anymore. Talking about the sexual abuse feels like I just keep pushing it down, and hoping it doesn’t resurface.

hope you get the closure you deserve.

 

[noctis]

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