goodness gracious , i have to bite my tongue during every sentence just so i dont say something that could incriminate me because people do not understand my condition !! ah ah ah
but who really cares about tu problems , girly .
No one !! even if they did understand , they would be frowned upon .
"why do you not take your medicine!!!" silly dumb annoying people .
if i wanted to get better i would be in recovery for everything thats wrong with me ,
but for now , guys , i will pretend to my parents face that i have recovered on my own .
fuck them , fuck them .
but my mother loves me , how could i say these things about my mother ??
why am i saying such rude things about her , no no , bad daughter . bad bad bad
shut up , why can i not be nice ?
never ever being nice , never ever being kind , not to anyone .
wishing i were a little girl again
no , never again . i hated that period
fuck me
i am such terrible , so bad , such at fault .
am i supposed to sit here and be nice ?
how can i be nice to others if i cannot be nice to myself
if i am not sane myself , why should i appear sane to others ?
i scream at myself through text , i talk to myself in a poor manner .
what they call delusional , is what they use to define me .
but what do i know ?
not knowing nothing , never known anything ?
school teaches me how to add and subtract numbers ,
but they never taught me how to report my father to CPS .