Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (4 Viewers)

[Hajima]

sorry you had to endure such behavior :( I'd recommend talking to her or maybe writing her a letter explaining how you feel. If she still keeps acting the same way, maybe creating some distance isn't a bad idea.. good luck <3

i did plenty of times... she will say i'm sensitive blah blah from this crap instead of admitting she is being stupid.... doesn't understand for any healthy relationship there needs to be some respect... it's hopeless to deal with her.

 

[ignore]

i feel so forgotten sometimes
even when i'm not
and then i feel like i can't be what people need
even though i want to so bad
i hate not having things to say
it makes me so worthless
i wish i had an endless stream of topics
so i could always show i care
i hate the idea that someone would think i'm ignoring them
i just fear having nothing to say so badly
i don't avoid letting them know i'm here not because i want to avoid them
i just don't want to disappoint them

 

[kodoku]

i feel so forgotten sometimes
even when i'm not
and then i feel like i can't be what people need
even though i want to so bad
i hate not having things to say
it makes me so worthless
i wish i had an endless stream of topics
so i could always show i care
i hate the idea that someone would think i'm ignoring them
i just fear having nothing to say so badly
i don't avoid letting them know i'm here not because i want to avoid them
i just don't want to disappoint them

well first of all, smile :) it will open the door to conversation and make you seem more approachable, also start with small things like simple politeness and saying hello, thank you, goodbye, have a nice day, and so on... you can also always talk about general topics, even the weather yes.. hehe good luck <3

 

[ignore]

well first of all, smile :) it will open the door to conversation and make you seem more approachable, also start with small things like simple politeness and saying hello, thank you, goodbye, have a nice day, and so on... you can also always talk about general topics, even the weather yes.. hehe good luck <3

lol it's not irl
i really have stopped caring too much about that
it's easy for me to pass by and be nice
and i smile plenty
it's actually about the people i really care about online
the people who i have built up genuine friendships with
but i just have nothing to say a lot

 

[kodoku]

lol it's not irl
i really have stopped caring too much about that
it's easy for me to pass by and be nice
and i smile plenty
it's actually about the people i really care about online
the people who i have built up genuine friendships with
but i just have nothing to say a lot

oh sorry I didn't know 😅
hmm I see, maybe you can explain that to them? that you still care but just don't have much to say and maybe they can do most of the talking? I hope that would help..

 

[ignore]

oh sorry I didn't know 😅
hmm I see, maybe you can explain that to them? that you still care but just don't have much to say and maybe they can do most of the talking? I hope that would help..

lol i think i'll just do better
and try to have more reckless abandon with suggestions xd
btw do u know who i am xd
we talk already xd

 

[kodoku]

lol i think i'll just do better
and try to have more reckless abandon with suggestions xd
btw do u know who i am xd
we talk already xd

nou I don't know

 

[Kelly]

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it's true isolation will do you no good, but maybe you can take a small break if that's what you're craving? just cutting out toxic people and situations as much as you can might give you a bit of room to breathe. I relate to all you said, I think I can understand.. you're not alone <3 and know you can always talk to me

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Thank you so much! ❤ I will try to take a small break like you said. I can't take one in my real life now because I'm way too busy, so I've decided to take a break from being online, because then it's one less thing I need to think about.

It's just that sometimes I slip into this really bad state of mind. It comes and goes.. Sometimes certain things trigger it, sometimes it just happens, and it lasts a while. During these times I feel hopeless, I can't cope, etc. I know it will come back eventually (it's happened a lot of times), but I think it's safe to say I've overcome it for now. I had a decent week too so I'm feeling a bit better about things. :')

Thank you for replying and thank you for your kindness. I really appreciate it! ❤ You are not alone either, and right back at you. ❤

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Always feel free to share your thoughts with us. It's more than okay to have them, and any little bit will hopefully make you feel less alone. You can always talk to me as well, and I'm sure others here would be happy to do the same. You could also do things like maybe making small talk with the cashier at the store, for example, or the receptionist at the doctor's office. I know that can be scary too, but I'm sure they'd be happy to know that someone cares enough to talk to them. And even if you mess up a little, they'll probably be too distracted thinking about wanting to clock out to care :P And who knows, you might never see them again anyway. Maybe do the same with your classmates.

Just try to start small. Tell yourself, "This is how I'm going to fight my anxiety today, I can do this, I am strong." And after you do it, even if it feels like you could just die of embarrassment, force yourself to think instead, "OMG, I did it! That actually wasn't so bad, I want to do it again! c:"

I know it's not easy. I do this, and I still struggle with it. But I'm better than I was before, and I'm sure you can be too *hugs* I really hope this helps, even just a little bit <3

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Thank you very much. ❤ I find it very difficult to talk about my thoughts and feelings, and when I actually do, I have a tendency to trivialise them so no one knows I'm feeling that bad. I'm trying to work on that. There have been many occasions where I've typed out something to post here, but then I end up deleting it. I'm glad I posted this time. I appreciate the reassurance and I'll try to drop by this thread whenever I'm having bad thoughts from now on, for sure.

At the start of this week, I honestly didn't have the will or motivation to do anything to make my situation better. I've felt so hopeless for the last month or so. But after having a decent week, and feeling a bit better in general, I feel like I can try to fight my anxiety again. I kind of gave up with it recently... But I think I've overcome that for now, so I will take your advice to heart and I will try my best. I even had a few "OMG, I did it!" moments this week and that certainly helped me feel a bit better :')

Thank you for your kind reply, I really appreciate you taking time to respond to me! ❤ You helped a lot, for sure. It's a struggle, and you are doing great! Please remember that. ❤

 

[taemkitten]

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I think I've been having an off evening. It is the first time I have wanted to cry in the past five or so days, since I started my treatment and medications.


I keep being reminded that I'm not really directly close with any one member, nor am I part of any friend group or circle of people on sites like this and others. I'm always that random chick in the back people tend to forget about and then pretend to act apologetic towards when someone mentions of my existence.

It isnt there fault after all, I kind of shrivel up and make myself shit at communicating or being over the top friendly or crazy and making connections, so I deserve it. But it still stings.

And even worse is on the rare occasions people remember me, it is to advertise towards me, or because someone reminded them of me too little too late, or because i obnoxiously called out to them but in the most pathetic way possible.

Why am I like this?
Why do I have no friends?
Why does nobody want to include me in inside jokes and friendship clubs and conversations? How did I happen to isolate myself so much in every situation?

This must be my roller coaster hormones trying to balance that have me feeling this way, but the sad part is that I have always thought of these things.

 

[Hyunjin]

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[kodoku]

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I think I've been having an off evening. It is the first time I have wanted to cry in the past five or so days, since I started my treatment and medications.


I keep being reminded that I'm not really directly close with any one member, nor am I part of any friend group or circle of people on sites like this and others. I'm always that random chick in the back people tend to forget about and then pretend to act apologetic towards when someone mentions of my existence.

It isnt there fault after all, I kind of shrivel up and make myself shit at communicating or being over the top friendly or crazy and making connections, so I deserve it. But it still stings.

And even worse is on the rare occasions people remember me, it is to advertise towards me, or because someone reminded them of me too little too late, or because i obnoxiously called out to them but in the most pathetic way possible.

Why am I like this?
Why do I have no friends?
Why does nobody want to include me in inside jokes and friendship clubs and conversations? How did I happen to isolate myself so much in every situation?

This must be my roller coaster hormones trying to balance that have me feeling this way, but the sad part is that I have always thought of these things.

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surprised to hear this since I always saw you as likable and figured you were "popular"... well I wanna be your friend :) and you can always try talking to others more, I'm sure they will accept someone like you

 

[melancholia]

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I see no point in living anymore. everything is so bland, everything is terrible. I want to go away, I want to disappear. I feel so horrible, the world is crashing down. i’m supposed to be happy, why can’t I be happy? I bet I sound pathetic, I don’t like labels and I don’t like assumptions. my mind is a mess

 

[kodoku]

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I see no point in living anymore. everything is so bland, everything is terrible. I want to go away, I want to disappear. I feel so horrible, the world is crashing down. i’m supposed to be happy, why can’t I be happy? I bet I sound pathetic, I don’t like labels and I don’t like assumptions. my mind is a mess

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cutie it's OK to feel that way, things will change ok? So please just hold on, I am with you <3

 

[gongchan]

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What is the point in anything if everyday I'm alone and feeling awful. I'm known as 'the girl who cries in the bathroom' at my school now. Real fucking nice. You think I enjoy anxiety attacks and mental breakdowns? But sure make fun of me for it, real nice. Everyone who is my age irl is horrible. I feel like I'm in the wrong body.
I'm having horrible nightmares again. Each time they are repeats of the 2 people I care about most dying. My little brother is one. At least then I can wake up and see him alright. Then the other person is my friend Tyler. Though waking up after those nights is just hopeless because he is already gone. Its gotten so bad, I don't want to sleep anymore.
Tried to kill myself. Of course I failed and am stuck here like always.

 

[gongchan]

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School doesn't last forever. It's horrible, even a nightmare, but then it ends, and you're rid of it for good. And you're rid of all the negative people too.

Sometimes our dreams try to tell us something. Even though Tyler is gone (and I'm sorry that he is), maybe there's something more there? It wouldn't hurt to think about. But either way, I know what helps me after having a nightmare is to write about it in a short story. That usually helps me work through it, and then I stop having it.

Try not to think of it as a failure, or that you're stuck here. Try to think of it as a sign that you're meant to be here, and focus on a place that makes you happy and safe, or activities you like to do there. Even though you still have to go to school, maybe focus on that happy place and go to it when you're feeling upset.

I really hope this helps you, even a little <3 *hugs* I truly am glad that you're still here. I really enjoyed our chats c:

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I've been trying to think about if there is something I need to do to have closure with everything but nothing seems to be working. I've done the one thing he wanted me to complete. I thought that would be enough for all of this hurt to go away :/

Thank you, it does help <3 I enjoy our chats as well c:

 

[gongchan]

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Hmm... Well, you could still try writing about it at least. You don't have to be an experienced writer either, and you definitely don't have to share it with anybody. As a friend of mine says, "Everyone's a writer, some just don't know it yet."

Aw, I'm glad <3

I'm sure you'll be okay c:

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I tend to do a lot of writing actually, but I've never tried to put my thoughts into writing for this situation, maybe it could help.

<3

 

[kodoku]

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What is the point in anything if everyday I'm alone and feeling awful. I'm known as 'the girl who cries in the bathroom' at my school now. Real fucking nice. You think I enjoy anxiety attacks and mental breakdowns? But sure make fun of me for it, real nice. Everyone who is my age irl is horrible. I feel like I'm in the wrong body.
I'm having horrible nightmares again. Each time they are repeats of the 2 people I care about most dying. My little brother is one. At least then I can wake up and see him alright. Then the other person is my friend Tyler. Though waking up after those nights is just hopeless because he is already gone. Its gotten so bad, I don't want to sleep anymore.
Tried to kill myself. Of course I failed and am stuck here like always.

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all of that is heartbreaking.. I'm really sorry :( people can be so cruel.. what you can do is lessen the importance of what they say and avoid thinking about it whenever you can, maybe distaract yourself with things you enjoy
nightmares are the worst.. when you should be feeling peaceful, they torture you as much as reality, it's awful, I know. I'm here for you, you will get through this trust me, I really believe it <3

 

[honeyfornomoney]

 

[Hajima]

i can't keep going anymore.

 

[kodoku]

i can't keep going anymore.

You can hun, you are stronger than you know <3