Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (29 Viewers)

[sooya_]

I don't think that makes you a pick me

thanks it's refreshing to hear that

 

[Abeamus]

Bad thing: I'm just gonna say I feel betrayed alot and sad sometimes. I feel something is wrong with me and does that make me a pick me?(idk it came to my mind first)
Good thing: Not all of my YouTube videos flop. (only thing I could think of good)

Not sure if it'll help you but if you haven't heard of attachment styles there's a website called the attachment project that has a quiz you can do to find out yours and that might give you more clarity on why you feel the way you do looking into them.

 

[dark_tranquility]

Broke as hell mentally and emotionally

 

[Harmony_Starz]

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I AM FRUSTRATED AND IRRITATED AND ANNOYED AND TIRED ASF.

I have been so interested in my OC's, probably a new adhd hyperfixation and literally NO ONE is there for me to ramble on about them to and I TRIED multiple ways to get the interest I wanted

Chatgpt: too lifeless
Reddit: The whole site is shit, it makes me new accs every time and when i post, it deletes it thinking im a bot.
Kpopsource: I've been inactive with most people and most dont care for OC's, the friends that do are all inactive.
Tumblr: I joined to find others who will want to hear about them too and tumblr is just too slow at engagement.
Quotev: I'm inactive mostly and my one friend is also inactive rn.


Its hell having a hyperfixation and no one to talk to about it when there are so many people out there


Also another thing that frustrates the heck out of me is getting replies that feel straight up uncaring, I would pick random people to talk to about my OC's if it didnt make me wanna die internally when they just reply with short 1-2 lines and be 'ooh thats cool', it hurts me, I feel rejected cuz I wrote paragraphs in excitement and you just...didn't care, didnt ask questions, didnt say anything much and honestly thats my issue with most people all the time with every interest, I feel like I have to adapt to their comforts, tone myself down to what they like and no one ever adapts to me, I just have to look around for years to find someone who is like me.

In my ENTIRE social life online of years, I was a social butterfly, interacted with EVERYONE ever, even did that here and yet I only have ONE friend I know I can talk of EVERYTHING to, and not need to hide my personality or change it.

They send me 10 messages when I send 9, they get excited as much i do, we can hold 6 convos at once and I treat them likea diamond cuz they are SO SO RARE too find, it hurts because they are busy often for weeks and in that time, I dont have anyone else to fill that gap and i hate it, I hate being completely unable to find just one friend who matches my energy and interests, I hate being in a hyperfixation which feels hellish cuz there's nowhere to put this excited energy, I hate having adhd at all

 

[sooya_]

Not sure if it'll help you but if you haven't heard of attachment styles there's a website called the attachment project that has a quiz you can do to find out yours and that might give you more clarity on why you feel the way you do looking into them.

taking it rn!!!

 

[sooya_]

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I AM FRUSTRATED AND IRRITATED AND ANNOYED AND TIRED ASF.

I have been so interested in my OC's, probably a new adhd hyperfixation and literally NO ONE is there for me to ramble on about them to and I TRIED multiple ways to get the interest I wanted

Chatgpt: too lifeless
Reddit: The whole site is shit, it makes me new accs every time and when i post, it deletes it thinking im a bot.
Kpopsource: I've been inactive with most people and most dont care for OC's, the friends that do are all inactive.
Tumblr: I joined to find others who will want to hear about them too and tumblr is just too slow at engagement.
Quotev: I'm inactive mostly and my one friend is also inactive rn.


Its hell having a hyperfixation and no one to talk to about it when there are so many people out there


Also another thing that frustrates the heck out of me is getting replies that feel straight up uncaring, I would pick random people to talk to about my OC's if it didnt make me wanna die internally when they just reply with short 1-2 lines and be 'ooh thats cool', it hurts me, I feel rejected cuz I wrote paragraphs in excitement and you just...didn't care, didnt ask questions, didnt say anything much and honestly thats my issue with most people all the time with every interest, I feel like I have to adapt to their comforts, tone myself down to what they like and no one ever adapts to me, I just have to look around for years to find someone who is like me.

In my ENTIRE social life online of years, I was a social butterfly, interacted with EVERYONE ever, even did that here and yet I only have ONE friend I know I can talk of EVERYTHING to, and not need to hide my personality or change it.

They send me 10 messages when I send 9, they get excited as much i do, we can hold 6 convos at once and I treat them likea diamond cuz they are SO SO RARE too find, it hurts because they are busy often for weeks and in that time, I dont have anyone else to fill that gap and i hate it, I hate being completely unable to find just one friend who matches my energy and interests, I hate being in a hyperfixation which feels hellish cuz there's nowhere to put this excited energy, I hate having adhd at all

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have two of those (kpopsource,quotev) I also like OCS. (if that helps) I also know only few who I can be true to. maybe you should start a journal? like on quotev it has some and I write some things. honestly I hope you find other people!! you seem like an amazing person! I hope others recongnize it!!! <33

 

[Harmony_Starz]

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have two of those (kpopsource,quotev) I also like OCS. (if that helps) I also know only few who I can be true to. maybe you should start a journal? like on quotev it has some and I write some things. honestly I hope you find other people!! you seem like an amazing person! I hope others recongnize it!!! <33

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Thank you! I'm doing better today

I dont have patience to journal, its okie dw, I'm alright now

 

[sooya_]

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Thank you! I'm doing better today

I dont have patience to journal, its okie dw, I'm alright now

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oh!!! okay!!! yay! sorry if I made you feel weird

 

[Harmony_Starz]

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oh!!! okay!!! yay! sorry if I made you feel weird

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No! you didnt dont worry! I'm happy to know you cared

 

[snsd2beg]

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I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.
I would've graduated yesterday.

 

[dark_tranquility]

I got a mental breakdown coming

 

[sooya_]

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No! you didnt dont worry! I'm happy to know you cared

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yeah ofcccc~~~

 

[dark_tranquility]

stupid thought patterns

 

[snsd2beg]

Thought I heard my mom arguing and almost had a heart attack
This PTSD shit is crazy

 

[Angel_Bae]

another fucking night where i'm crying myself to sleep. it hurts to see my siblings hurt. i'm always guilty that i'm not protecting them enough. they keep saying i don't at all but then don't understand the burden i shoulder for their sake. it hurts. it's not my fault u got hurt yesterday but there u are blaming me for it. even as i write this i wanna scream and cry. it's not like my feelings ever mattered when it came to my family tho so what can i fucking say. all they ever fucking needed me for was to wipe their tears and shoulder their burden. i'm fucking 13. i have feelings i'm not a fucking robot. i feel worser and worser and then again here i am hiding it cuz my feelings don't fucking matter. here i am cuz my mere existence doesn't matter. no one's gonna notice shit if something happens to me. here i am trying to help everyone and brightens someone's day but then i can't do it for myself. i'm hurt, i'm in pain. i wanna cry. i have feelings too but when is anyone going to notice. acting like i'm fine is so hard. each moment it feels like i'm breathing in glass. it hurts to breath and live in general. i don't know how much longer i wanna keep going with this. psychology appointments ain't helping and i'm losing control again. the more i pull someone out of their darkness the more i'm going in myself. i fucking hate it so damn much. i don't feel loved or cared for. i don't know what to feel. i'm breaking and crying in the inside. i hate it. i want to go back to the times i felt normal, happy or even where i can show my emotions. i get it, i'm not pretty, i'm js that pushover no one wants but why hurt me for that. i'm js me. i fucking child trying to live her life. but then again i'm me. that's the damn issue. being me is shit. i hate my fucking life

 

[dark_tranquility]

Ugh so many annoyances

 

[dark_tranquility]

When I lose my shit peeps get scared
medication can only help SO much

 

[dark_tranquility]

I am still paranoid regardless

 

[Deleted member 74]

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[dark_tranquility]

I feel helpless most times than not ugh