Sensitive My Transition to Becoming a Woman on HOLD for now (1 Viewer)

[dark_tranquility]

Mainly because

- first and foremost my extremely phobic and opinionated family.
saying hurtful things like 'I have strange ideas or its not normal'
My step mother once cornered me in the car once and said in her 'culture'
women are women and men are men or some bs story.
then she demanded not asked, demanded I don't do it again and dad just took her side, typical....

- Where I live is extremely toxic and when I did wear female attire here at one point.
I was met with a lot of gawkers and people threatening to beat me up, just by walking around town.
(I'd have to move from this town altogether, where it's more accepting of my transition.)

Mostly guys were like this.

- Lastly I don't really have the money for the gender reassignment surgery, or anything else related to procedures, or even a working job at this point in time.

I still identify as a woman at this point in time, it's just on hold for a while. I am not sure for how long?
I don't really care if my family disowns me because of it, I don't even like my family much to begin with, so no biggie.

Sorry that it's kind a bummer thing to talk about. But I feel like this is who I really am and society doesn't want me to be myself.
Which is why I hate the world a lot for the most part.

Thanks for listening to my rant/situation

Petra the Poetic

 

[Ahsoka]

I hope that at some point you'll be around people who are accepting of you

 

[maruberry]

That sounds like an extremely tough situation, I feel for you.
I know it is hard, but I really say you should cut your family out of your life.

They are hurting you.
You should not associate with ppl who do that to you.

I hope you will be able to find ppl who accept you for who you are. You deserve that.

 

[dark_tranquility]

That sounds like an extremely tough situation, I feel for you.
I know it is hard, but I really say you should cut your family out of your life.

They are hurting you.
You should not associate with ppl who do that to you.

I hope you will be able to find ppl who accept you for who you are. You deserve that.

I don't really believe I have a family to begin with.
Like they have never been in my life at all for the most part and dip in and out at moments notice.
I just have 'shit' parents unfortunately.

But I agree. They are just toxic and never have anything supportive to say to me at all.

 

[maruberry]

I don't really believe I have a family to begin with.
Like they have never been in my life at all for the most part and dip in and out at moments notice.
I just have 'shit' parents unfortunately.

But I agree. They are just toxic and never have anything supportive to say to me at all.

People like that don't deserve the title of family.
They don't deserve you in their lives.

 

[dark_tranquility]

People like that don't deserve the title of family.
They don't deserve you in their lives.

True. I feel like they see me as a failure of the family as well.
Like I always struggle and am 'weird' by them.

Like I could tolerate my dad's mum's opinions.
But my step mum ruined our family as soon as she came into it.

 

[maruberry]

True. I feel like they see me as a failure of the family as well.
Like I always struggle and am 'weird' by them.

Like I could tolerate my dad's mum's opinions.
But my step mum ruined our family as soon as she came into it.

You shouldn't have to struggle to be accepted by your family. That should be the bare minimum.
At one point you should just cut your losses and think about if you would be happier without them in your life.

They don't treat you as family. That requires love, acceptance and support.
You have no obligation to them as family.

 

[dark_tranquility]

You shouldn't have to struggle to be accepted by your family. That should be the bare minimum.
At one point you should just cut your losses and think about if you would be happier without them in your life.

They don't treat you as family. That requires love, acceptance and support.
You have no obligation to them as family.

True. But as awful as they are to me. I still can't really bring myself to completely hate them, as silly as that sounds.
I am too forgiving to people, even if it's my own family hurting me.

I don't know how to go about disconnecting from them anyways and I haven't told them everything about what I am going through.
As I feel like they don't understand or don't want to understand in general.

 

[RainbowDevil]

Are you studying anything or what do you plan on being in the future?

I'm sure that as soon as you get that part on track you'll get to move out to a more accepting place with better people, tho admittedly I don't really know of a place where everyone or even a majority are accepting but you'll definitely do better than wherever you're at right now.

 

[kodoku]

I can only imagine how hard it must be.. but I believe there's a better life for you on the other side. Think things through well, make your choice, and fight for your happiness...... I wish you the best

 

[dark_tranquility]

Are you studying anything or what do you plan on being in the future?

I'm sure that as soon as you get that part on track you'll get to move out to a more accepting place with better people, tho admittedly I don't really know of a place where everyone or even a majority are accepting but you'll definitely do better than wherever you're at right now.

I don't really know what I want to be in the future, as I keep failing at anything I set my mind to unfortunately.
I am seeing if I can get assessed or diagnosed for a learning disability atm.
Since everything I do study wise, just seems too complex or hard to understand for me, even the simple stuff.

 

[JakeyWantsCakey]

Sorry to hear your going through a hard time, sending lots of love and positive vibes your way!

 

[dark_tranquility]

Sorry to hear your going through a hard time, sending lots of love and positive vibes your way!

Thanks buddy. A friend of mine said it best - 'Life hasn't been very kind to me'

 

[kuro]

aw bby i'm so sorry you're going through this, remember they're not your family if they don't respect and love you for who you are. believe me, i live with tough parents too, we just have to put it behind us one day. i'm so so proud of you for standing up to them and not just letting them trample all over you. and ignore the uneducated idiots that leer at you, they have nothing better to do.

 

[dark_tranquility]

aw bby i'm so sorry you're going through this, remember they're not your family if they don't respect and love you for who you are. believe me, i live with tough parents too, we just have to put it behind us one day. i'm so so proud of you for standing up to them and not just letting them trample all over you. and ignore the uneducated idiots that leer at you, they have nothing better to do.

First time you called me baby. Its nice lol.
My family can be very ignorant at times.
And the worst thing is. My dad has a daughter who is severely impaired as well, yet he and the wife and his mum still treat me, like something they found on their shoe.... sigh

 

[kuro]

First time you called me baby. Its nice lol.
My family can be very ignorant at times.
And the worst thing is. My dad has a daughter who is severely impaired as well, yet he and the wife and his mum still treat me, like something they found on their shoe.... sigh

i mean i'm considerably younger than you LMAO, even as the youngest one in my friend group i call everyone that because i like pretending i'm older

ugh that's horrible, i hate when parents play favorites. every child deserves love, attention, and respect from their parents. if their own parents don't treat them well, how will anyone else? i'm so sorry you're dealing with this, it's just horrible. i hope one day you can escape

 

[dark_tranquility]

i mean i'm considerably younger than you LMAO, even as the youngest one in my friend group i call everyone that because i like pretending i'm older

ugh that's horrible, i hate when parents play favorites. every child deserves love, attention, and respect from their parents. if their own parents don't treat them well, how will anyone else? i'm so sorry you're dealing with this, it's just horrible. i hope one day you can escape

Ah true. I am only a few seconds younger than my twin, so I don't know if that counts as me me being youngest or not to him lol
I hope so too, because I am quite fed up with how they see me and treat me in their eyes.

I remember my brother even told me, as horrible as it is. That my dad said I was dead to people, because he was too embarrassed to say he had a second son that didn't do much with his life. Not sure if true or not. But it bloody hurts man. :(

 

[kuro]

Ah true. I am only a few seconds younger than my twin, so I don't know if that counts as me me being youngest or not to him lol
I hope so too, because I am quite fed up with how they see me and treat me in their eyes.

I remember my brother even told me, as horrible as it is. That my dad said I was dead to people, because he was too embarrassed to say he had a second son that didn't do much with his life. Not sure if true or not. But it bloody hurts man. :(

if i was your twin i'd never let you live that down lol

but that's so so frustrating that they have such a backwards way of thinking, i'm sorry. that's so horrible and such a trashy thing to do. i can't even imagine my parents telling others i was dead :((

 

[dark_tranquility]

if i was your twin i'd never let you live that down lol

but that's so so frustrating that they have such a backwards way of thinking, i'm sorry. that's so horrible and such a trashy thing to do. i can't even imagine my parents telling others i was dead :((

He has a mental illness my dad I believe as well as my mother and yet they both neglect me terribly and treat me like trash.
Though they seem to be both oblivious or in denial that it exists in either of them.

 

[dark_tranquility]

As always, I am truly sorry.... We start out as children, innocent, free, and curious, with the sun and the moon and the stars in our eyes, and then slowly, bit by bit by bit, that innocence is stolen from us... I know you're already doing this as best you can, but still, hold on. This isn't the end of your life, there's always a blank chapter to write, and who knows how the next one can turn out for you ❤

I understand and yeah things have just been pear shaped for me my whole life.
It's a miracle I am still alive now to be fair.

and I will continue to live on, for you guys, no matter how much I feel like crap in the process.