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[dark_tranquility]

So tired need a nap I feel

 

[ning]

she lowkey was a bad bitch

 

[ning]

im used to this by now

 

[noctis]

🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭

 

[dark_tranquility]

dying fetus ohhhhhh

 

[dark_tranquility]

not so random anymore youtube downloads

 

[litc]

I want to go to a hospital not school
I’m so tired of my life even before this
I hope nobody reads this

I can’t sleep and I had to put it somewhere tho

I hate my life

 

[dark_tranquility]

I want to go to a hospital not school
I’m so tired of my life even before this
I hope nobody reads this

I can’t sleep and I had to put it somewhere tho

I hate my life

I hope you feel better
if I had to choose
I would school

aus hospital service is complete garbage

 

[litc]

I hope you feel better
if I had to choose
I would school

aus hospital service is complete garbage

I can’t pass like this tho and it usually needs surgery

 

[dark_tranquility]

I can’t pass like this tho and it usually needs surgery

do you medicare or something through the hospital its free

 

[litc]

do you medicare or something through the hospital its free

School costs more than the hospital and I’m not gonna pass like this

I am mad abt the money too tho

I don’t want to go to the hospital per say but I don’t want to go to school bc it gets worse longer it’s left untreated and I downplayed it too long

 

[dark_tranquility]

crying still hurts all the same.

 

[dark_tranquility]

Prisoner

 

[Deleted member 74]

my depression is not getting any better is it
I don't care, don't care what happens to me or that I'm struggling, I feel oddly free

 

[Deleted member 74]

I can hear what people would say or think already "stop being so depressing" or "again she's lost the plot" or "is she going through a crisis again" or "isn't she always" or "be positive", they'll roll their eyes when I say I'm trying
I will stay silent, not to worry, well I been silent since years ago really

 

[Deleted member 74]

one thing about people irl is that sure you can have plenty of friends and they can all love you, but no one likes a bore or debbie downer aka if you struggle mentally and they will disappear or not understand if you act as such
they only like a version of you, not the real you
it feels like all my energy goes into that and that happy bright version is not me pretending, it's genuinely a part of me too? but then at night or when I'm not busy I just can't imagine how it was me that was joking around and making everyone laugh, I can't fathom how I seemed so content and put together when I feel this way

 

[Deleted member 74]

what a busy day today was I am wiped out by the end I'm so tired x.x switched my phone off I just don't want to think about anything
and I thought I'd come back at night and be able to do my assignment? girl we're watching something and then sleeping
we'll get it done tomorrow, I'll answer tomorrow

 

[Deleted member 74]

well I understand them of course
I get it
I just feel so guilty for even being this way

 

[litc]

I hope you feel better
if I had to choose
I would school

aus hospital service is complete garbage

Ty for talking to me yesterday I feel more optimistic today I hope you have strength for today too

 

[noctis]

I don't wanna talk.