Randomly remembering when in 7th grade we had to write an admiration "postcard" or smth, to someone in the school we admire. I had 3 girls in mind to consider, I don't even know why but maybe I had little crushes on them tbh, but I decided to write it for the girl I thought was least likely to react mushily to it.
I don't remember what I said exactly, but one of the things was she was standing up for me in our math class, when this boy would always make fun of me, and I was kinda too shy to do anything. She was an extrovert for sure haha. There was other things too, lol, I just don't remember them all. She also acted sorta as an older sibling to me, and babied me a little haha, though she was only a few months older, literally everyone my age or older treats me that way, but still I kinda liked it tbh
But she still reacted mushily to it, and thanked me in person with her words for it and said she didn't know I felt that way about her and other mushy stuff that I don't remember, and also that that boy was an idiot
I wanted to run, the mushiness

I don't like mushiness
She's a good kid though. She was quite a personality, I did really like her

She was always helping me when I was shy too. I hope she's doing well, ugh I suck at keeping in touch with ppl so much
But I prefer making people smile/laugh to mushiness
But whenever I say something heartfelt ppl get touched and become mushy to me


and I wanna run
