I always end up proving to people I'm not that good of a person, and I'm not saying this to be manipulative or garner pity. It's just true, and I'm working on it every day, to live a kind life and create a good environment for myself, whichever way I'm able to. I've always been someone who feels every moment, experience, emotion, form of communication and connection deeply and seriously, and I can't with people who don't, who I can't figure out and don't seem to care much about how life has gone, but somehow I feel like I should be the one to apologize. Then again, time isn't what defines anything but I still feel bad. I guess I'm just sorry for everything, and you should've never met me. Then again, it's possible you don't care as much as I do. I actually wish you won't. Just like with many people, I wish I would've filtered out the sincere parts of me because those are the ugliest and the parts people don't wish to see. If I could turn back time, I would've just been that version of me instead.