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Releasing the demons in my head
suicidal thoughts are my new bed
a comfort I need to sleep forever too
I have been drinking too much negativity
and now I am addicted
hungover and leaning over a ledge
always on edge
like the knife tip in the moonlight glistening
never missing a beat
a darkness that never ends
mending a void of nothingness seems pointless
living a fantasy that is all I know
turning to a reality that isn't mine
the voices kill my mood
kill my happiness like a murder victim
always a victim to my own madness
my own sadness knows no limits
just want to bin myself like trash on the rebound
a lifeless corpse in the rain
the rain in my head never seems to leave
as I leave this world
as I leave this world
I could care less about being open as a book
when my mind is closed like a dark carnival
a dark mood is my new energy
a dark circumference is my realisation
the new me is the old me
and the old me is a lost cause
A reason to exist lessening
as I lessen the pain in my heart
I splatter like clothing tatter against the matter
what matters is death
and life is just an illusion
Note: I have been feeling shit over the past few weeks and this is what I made from it.
It's not supposed to be enjoyable. But just to reveal all the problems in my mind state and mentality : /
@vogue @kodoku @Lady_Grey @DrowningFishy @gayzone @Saythename17 @Jimmychimchim @Somi@Bookworm
I am in a good mood now. Just needed to release these thoughts, rather than bottle them up. Like I have been doing.
I didn't mean any harm by it to anyone. It feels like a death metal song if nothing else.
This is what I used to first write. : / It feels weird to go back to that part of my life : /
suicidal thoughts are my new bed
a comfort I need to sleep forever too
I have been drinking too much negativity
and now I am addicted
hungover and leaning over a ledge
always on edge
like the knife tip in the moonlight glistening
never missing a beat
a darkness that never ends
mending a void of nothingness seems pointless
living a fantasy that is all I know
turning to a reality that isn't mine
the voices kill my mood
kill my happiness like a murder victim
always a victim to my own madness
my own sadness knows no limits
just want to bin myself like trash on the rebound
a lifeless corpse in the rain
the rain in my head never seems to leave
as I leave this world
as I leave this world
I could care less about being open as a book
when my mind is closed like a dark carnival
a dark mood is my new energy
a dark circumference is my realisation
the new me is the old me
and the old me is a lost cause
A reason to exist lessening
as I lessen the pain in my heart
I splatter like clothing tatter against the matter
what matters is death
and life is just an illusion
Note: I have been feeling shit over the past few weeks and this is what I made from it.
It's not supposed to be enjoyable. But just to reveal all the problems in my mind state and mentality : /
@vogue @kodoku @Lady_Grey @DrowningFishy @gayzone @Saythename17 @Jimmychimchim @Somi@Bookworm
I am in a good mood now. Just needed to release these thoughts, rather than bottle them up. Like I have been doing.
I didn't mean any harm by it to anyone. It feels like a death metal song if nothing else.
This is what I used to first write. : / It feels weird to go back to that part of my life : /
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