Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (16 Viewers)

[kodoku]

@honeyfornomoney glad to hear it, my freind and thank you so much for your kidness, I hope things somehow get better in the future too.. for all of us

 

[honeyfornomoney]

@honeyfornomoney glad to hear it, my freind and thank you so much for your kidness, I hope things somehow get better in the future too.. for all of us

I should thank you, you are always here for me and everyone ♡

 

[kodoku]

I should thank you, you are always here for me and everyone ♡

that really means the world to me

 

[dark_tranquility]

@Kat_in_the_box stay strong ......

and also sorry for the slow replies this time guys, I was being selfish with my own troubles >_<

It's okay Doctor. We all need time alone to deal with our troubles.
Completely understandable. No harm done. <3

 

[Wonpil]

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This week has been one of those weeks :/

Everything feels like it's nothing

i've been told twice to just kill myself.

maybe if i did, this pain would finally stop.

i'm not gonna do it, but it seems like the only escape.

i was looking for something in the bathroom and i found some razor blades. i don't know why, but i kept them. i mean i do obviously know why, but it's still...i'm trying to stop hurting myself but it's so hard to stop.

according to people i'm "manipulative" i'm a liar, they say i'm just an all around terrible person

maybe i'd stop hurting people if i was gone

the thoughts are too loud. it hurts my head. every day, all day it's just those thoughts. running in my brain non-stop. i don't know how to stop them. i feel like i'm crazy or something

 

[kodoku]

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This week has been one of those weeks :/

Everything feels like it's nothing

i've been told twice to just kill myself.

maybe if i did, this pain would finally stop.

i'm not gonna do it, but it seems like the only escape.

i was looking for something in the bathroom and i found some razor blades. i don't know why, but i kept them. i mean i do obviously know why, but it's still...i'm trying to stop hurting myself but it's so hard to stop.

according to people i'm "manipulative" i'm a liar, they say i'm just an all around terrible person

maybe i'd stop hurting people if i was gone

the thoughts are too loud. it hurts my head. every day, all day it's just those thoughts. running in my brain non-stop. i don't know how to stop them. i feel like i'm crazy or something

Spoiler

I'm sorry hun.. but you're not crazy, people seem to just be messing with you a lot. I would be sad if you disappeared, the people who bring you down don't deserve you, please stay strong <3

 

[Wonpil]

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I'm sorry hun.. but you're not crazy, people seem to just be messing with you a lot. I would be sad if you disappeared, the people who bring you down don't deserve you, please stay strong <3

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i'm trying to stay strong and not give in <3

 

[kodoku]

I'll just swallow my words again

 

[dark_tranquility]

My paranoia has me under control and pulls the reigns.
So much so, I have been avoiding a lot of people on the forums and in reality sigh.

 

[kodoku]

unbearable

 

[cosmic_gayls]

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basically i’ve felt very out of it these days. like my ‘friends’ don’t talk to me anymore, my parents think that me liking kpop is just a phase as if i havent tried to talk to them about why i like kpop. like my grandparents are really the only people I can talk to me. and my social anxiety has been worse than ever, i want to make more friends who actually like kpop so i can relate to someone but i can’t

 

[jasque]

My paranoia almost got the best of me

I think I got stronger with that kind of stuff...

How? No idea.

I'm considering to just stop talking a lot, even on the internet.

I'm a terrible talker.

Maybe if I just stop trusting people or caring at all...

 

[jasque]

I get why some people treated me bad in the past though.

I just wish they at least said what was the damn problem before treating me badly.

I say the problem when I see it repeating a lot.

I...

Whatever, those people will never be back in my life.

Never.

The people now, aren't the people back then...

I hate all this sarcasm people learned with The Big Bang Theory, I hate it.

I want it more like... Idk, idk what I want.

I'll go sleep.

 

[dark_tranquility]

My paranoia almost got the best of me

I think I got stronger with that kind of stuff...

How? No idea.

I'm considering to just stop talking a lot, even on the internet.

I'm a terrible talker.

Maybe if I just stop trusting people or caring at all...

Sorry you feel that way.
I am in the same boat as you.
Maybe we can work on it together :)

Paranoia runs my life too and I am not the best on talking either.

 

[jasque]

Sorry you feel that way.
I am in the same boat as you.
Maybe we can work on it together :)

Paranoia runs my life too and I am not the best on talking either.

It sucks so damn much.

I see something that I read wrongly, I assume it was a shade.

I assume it'll ruin everything, that people will start treating me like pure trash.

And doing that while mocking in my face, doing that while pretending they aren't doing...

But then, in certain situations people ending acting stupidier than me, then what do I do?

I know others are having big problems with that person's behaviour that is all over the place.

That person, everywhere he goes, people says to him "Stop doing this! Do this other thing instead!"

The person goes "All right"

Then person continues doing his wrong behavior and then ask for advice.

"Hey, I did the same thing I was already doing, but it ended bad, why?"

Ughhh

I said what the problem was!

2, 3, 4, 5... 30 people said what is the problem, still the guy insisting on doing the damn same thing, only listens to what he wants to listen!

But then... am I like that too? How can I know if I'm that terrible?

This sucks man...

One thing I cant complain is that my heart isnt beating fast for some reason.

It doesnt anymore.

I think I became a machine, an alien, some weird stuff like that.

Sorry for the long post xD

 

[dark_tranquility]

It sucks so damn much.

I see something that I read wrongly, I assume it was a shade.

I assume it'll ruin everything, that people will start treating me like pure trash.

And doing that while mocking in my face, doing that while pretending they aren't doing...

But then, in certain situations people ending acting stupidier than me, then what do I do?

I know others are having big problems with that person's behaviour that is all over the place.

That person, everywhere he goes, people says to him "Stop doing this! Do this other thing instead!"

The person goes "All right"

Then person continues doing his wrong behavior and then ask for advice.

"Hey, I did the same thing I was already doing, but it ended bad, why?"

Ughhh

I said what the problem was!

2, 3, 4, 5... 30 people said what is the problem, still the guy insisting on doing the damn same thing, only listens to what he wants to listen!

But then... am I like that too? How can I know if I'm that terrible?

This sucks man...

One thing I cant complain is that my heart isnt beating fast for some reason.

It doesnt anymore.

I think I became a machine, an alien, some weird stuff like that.

Sorry for the long post xD

It's fine really lol I assume thing things about people too. Even though we aren't mind readers and know what they are thinking of us.
I lost a few friends, because they can't tolerate my mental illness. Which is unfair on me and they go through the same deal.
So it's hypocritical hippo on their part as well.

I speak to a therapist and doctor about my issues a lot.

 

[jasque]

It's fine really lol I assume thing things about people too. Even though we aren't mind readers and know what they are thinking of us.
I lost a few friends, because they can't tolerate my mental illness. Which is unfair on me and they go through the same deal.
So it's hypocritical hippo on their part as well.

I speak to a therapist and doctor about my issues a lot.

I see

I hope it wont affect you the time it happens, because i know that its not as easy as say to ourselves "the world isnt against us"

When our minds decide we need to feel terrible, we can only fight our best to keep a big smile and think it'll go away

Wont Always work but we can at least try ig

I hope you have a good weekend

 

[dark_tranquility]

I see

I hope it wont affect you the time it happens, because i know that its not as easy as say to ourselves "the world isnt against us"

When our minds decide we need to feel terrible, we can only fight our best to keep a big smile and think it'll go away

Wont Always work but we can at least try ig

I hope you have a good weekend

Same to you. I hope your weekend is great and memorable <3
Yep It is hard, but being negative all of my life. (My mindset has been concrete that for years)
I am only now starting to realise my value and worth as a person.
As I said before. 'bullies can really damage a persons resolve and self esteem".

 

[jasque]

When I am existential all the time, is it even a crisis anymore?

 

[Wonpil]

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I'm having a lot of intrusive thoughts and they're really overwhelming telling me stuff like 'Go kill yourself' and I hate it :(