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im 26 years old and i feel like nothing but a failure. i never tried hard enough because i never felt good enough.
i wish i can feel like "im only 26" but i try so hard and its only ever "im already 26". i feel like i have nothing, done nothing, nobody cares about me (and thats not 'nobodys' fault, but my own fault). i always give up and restart over and over again. i feel like im doing absolutely fuck all with my life. im tired of just pushing on by just looking forward to the little things to keep me going its barely working anymore.
im forever stuck in this cycle and im forever gonna be stuck in it alone.
i feel like ive been thinking the same damn shit for the past 13 years because i have im so annoying. i thought i pushed past the fact that im just gonna to be a reclusive loser but ig it still hurts ! i know im not worthy of friends but its nice to feel like someone cares or someones there for you. im so alone its painful. (its my fault) how can i make an impact on anybody there's nothing going for me. i hate putting in so much effort and getting in nothing in return. still nobody to blame but myself. just another reason i give up easily. i just dont know how to be..... like..... worth it. i dont know how to mean something. there's 0 point of thinking any thoughts like this but i really do wish i could go back and do something different but what can i do different. what would i have done differently its so pointless.

im really sorry to my younger self, you pushed through for nothing. i failed you and to be honest that's probably whats hurting the most. the little hope you had for the future and i still couldn't do anything to change it. what am i doing, i have no idea what im doing. why am i constantly failing myself, why couldnt i do anything. what do i keep giving up for. what do i really want to do? why am i the worst.
the only thing ive ever been good at is giving up im sick. hate myself so much


sorry for posting this i have no where to go no one to talk to
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I wish so much that I could be different. I'm sad, empty, damaged, broken, stupid, it's all I can see and it weighs me down. it's frustrating. I'm so tired in every kind of way. I cried because I'm glad that no one can understand me, but it hurts because it makes me feel like something is wrong with me. It feels like I'm always silently searching to confirm that it's true and each time, it does. it seems I ruin everything I touch.
 
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i was going to end it all in hawaii, so i could go happy. in the place i wanted to be.

but i didn't get to.

and everyday i cry because i missed my opportunity to just choose peace, a path that wouldn't be so painful.

i wish someone could understand the pain and tell me it'll be okay. but i think i'm going to feel this way forever.
 

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Not even caring about my delusions
if it happens it happens.
 

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if i end my life, i will hurt my best friend
but if i dont, i have to deal with the trauma and anger the rest of my life.
im not scared to die but i dont want to
it feels like i have to, its always been that way
no matter if im happy for one day, it will all come back another time
not worth it
 

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I feel terrible, i made mt own gf think i was bored of her when i wasnt, i feel so bad
 

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explain you feelings to her and explain what was going on that made you act whatever way u did
communication is key, i know first hand
don't let a good relationship go bad due to lack of understanding pookie
I did immediately when i saw her post about it but i still feel very bad about it
 

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I did immediately when i saw her post about it but i still feel very bad about it
wait r u online dating ? like forum dating or what ? if u dont wanna say thats fine too
but dont think to hard on it, if she is still upset with you after you explained yourself then just leave it alone for tonight and get a fresh start in the morning
 
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