Official ✯ ✵ Mental Health Support✯ ✵ (6 Viewers)

[dark_tranquility]

sounds really scary, I'm sorry.. I hope you're taking care of yourself as much as you can.. <3

Yeah I am. But it always take a step backwards whenever I am well.
I don't get stressed, I just wig out badly when I am tired...

if I could never get tired, then I'd be free. But I can't so my mental health persists. :(

 

[BaeTae]

Spoiler: I've been going back into my spiral...

Over the last few days, I've been feeling like I've slowly been retreating back into my spiral. I've been thinking a lot about my aunt and friend (who both took their lives) and wanting to cry but I can't. The tears won't come. I've been feeling like I've been letting my friends down and that I'm a disappointment. When I've tried to hint a bit at the situation, people seem to shun me off. I can't find my place anymore. I feel like I stick out in a crowd because people seem to stare. I don't even know them. I've slowly lost my emotions again and I can't laugh at the same joke that me and my friend have been making for years. I feel like I can't take this life anymore. I can't seem to see my purpose here anymore. It is a year and a half since the last time I've done things to myself but I feel like I won't make it to two years. I don't mean to make this depressing but it has been weighing on me and I keep trying to hide it behind a smile and jokes to make people laugh. I can't seem to connect with people anymore.
Sometimes I feel like I should get help but I can't seem to bring myself to do it and I think it won't help. They haven't stopped me from getting dragged back in to my spiral. I can't seem to write anymore and I can't seem to keep up with anything. My grades have been slipping and it stresses me out on top of that. I hate to be fake for people but I don't want people fawning over me saying 'OMG ARE YOU OK?' No I'm not ok. I can't be ok. I've tried. I just can't. I'm sorry KPS...

Just know that I will ALWAYS be here for you, hon. Don't hesitate to come to me if you ever feel like this. I'm here to listen and I'm here to help you.

 

[MinSquishy]

Just know that I will ALWAYS be here for you, hon. Don't hesitate to come to me if you ever feel like this. I'm here to listen and I'm here to help you.

I know you will.

 

[BaeTae]

I know you will.

Good, that's good that you know, and you won't be afraid to come to me for anything.

 

[MinSquishy]

Good, that's good that you know, and you won't be afraid to come to me for anything.

I love you, Taehyuk!!!!!!

 

[BaeTae]

I love you too, Yeonha!

 

[Willow]

Well I don’t feel that good recently. I really need to have some affection ... hugs or whatever would help me to feel better

 

[MinSquishy]

Well I don’t feel that good recently. I really need to have some affection ... hugs or whatever would help me to feel better

 

[Willow]

🤗🤗🤗🤗

 

[MinSquishy]

🤗🤗🤗🤗

I love you!!! If you need to talk, I'm here!

 

[YouNiceKeepGoin]

Well I don’t feel that good recently. I really need to have some affection ... hugs or whatever would help me to feel better

LUV CHU!!!~~~

 

[Willow]

I love you!!! If you need to talk, I'm here!

Thanks 😌😌😌

 

[MinSquishy]

Thanks 😌😌😌

No problem, love.

 

[Willow]

No problem, love.

Saranghae 🤗😘

 

[MinSquishy]

Saranghae 🤗😘

Saranghae! 💘

 

[Willow]

If someone has any idea how to warm my hands. I would like to know ! I have always cold hands ... 😓😓

 

[YouNiceKeepGoin]

If someone has any idea how to warm my hands. I would like to know ! I have always cold hands ... 😓😓

Armpits, put them under your armpits, or use your pookets, or hold someones hands

 

[Willow]

Armpits, put them under your armpits, or use your pookets, or hold someones hands

It doesn’t work though 😅😅😅

 

[kodoku]

Well I don’t feel that good recently. I really need to have some affection ... hugs or whatever would help me to feel better

If someone has any idea how to warm my hands. I would like to know ! I have always cold hands ... 😓😓

why do you wanna wamr your hands tho? it's okay to be a vampire

 

[potato]

Spoiler

I feel as if I'm being devoured by a black hole. To the onlookers, everything is going slow, but from my perspective, everything is going fast. it's as if I'm alone even if I'm surrounded by a million people i feel a deep pit of loneliness in me that is preventing me from being me. I'm not a who i used to be i am a shell from my former self. I've been having some emotional conflicts, problems at home, problems at school, and problems within me. I just want help, but atlas everything comes with a price. My motivational levels are Marina's Trench. Everything has become a challenge, even writing. I am shifting back in forth between reality and between my space. Reality can be a nice place but I don't want to be there, I don't want to be anywhere.

As I'm writing this I am realizing that no one will care.

Spoiler

I remember there used to be a time when I just wanted to float. Somewhere between everywhere and nowhere, some place where I could just feel the wind on my face. Somewhere away from the ground, up in the sky, not travelling in any particular direction - just floating. I felt like my true self was up there in the clouds and someone else was living in my body, repeating the same mundane tasks everyday. Even the smallest of actions felt like they would take a huge amount of effort. The only time that spell was broken was when I was around my friends, surrounded by people who loved me and people I loved dearly back. Even if it was only for a second, they made me forget about my chaotic thoughts and all I could do was get lost in the endless laughter. Surrounding myself with people who gave me love helped me a lot and maybe it might help you too ^^

My dream state keeps getting worse and my dreams in general, keep harassing me.
Like what is real and what isn't? I cannot tell anymore.

And now I am afraid of dying more than ever (chicken heart)
I just feel like I am living a nightmare that never ends.

Kind of freddy kruger ish as well with how they remain real afterward still.

Hallucinative acid trips the doctor says with colour focus of another mental health thing.
don't know how to spell it. But living LSD trips make no sense to me.

That must be so scary... I hope the doctors can help you in some way <3
It can be so hard to distinguish reality sometimes, everything can feel like torture. I used to think dying was a scary thing too, I still do. But, I've tried to live in the moment and accept it. Accept that it will come some day, even tomorrow but I don't need to think about tomorrow. I try to focus on today and the things that I'm going to do right now. It sort of helped take away the stress of all the times I would lie in bed worrying about what would happen to me in the future. I know your days seem like a nightmare that will never end, but hang in there and take care. I'll always be here if you need someone to talk to <3

Here's a cute gif to cheer you up ^^:

Spoiler: I've been going back into my spiral...

Over the last few days, I've been feeling like I've slowly been retreating back into my spiral. I've been thinking a lot about my aunt and friend (who both took their lives) and wanting to cry but I can't. The tears won't come. I've been feeling like I've been letting my friends down and that I'm a disappointment. When I've tried to hint a bit at the situation, people seem to shun me off. I can't find my place anymore. I feel like I stick out in a crowd because people seem to stare. I don't even know them. I've slowly lost my emotions again and I can't laugh at the same joke that me and my friend have been making for years. I feel like I can't take this life anymore. I can't seem to see my purpose here anymore. It is a year and a half since the last time I've done things to myself but I feel like I won't make it to two years. I don't mean to make this depressing but it has been weighing on me and I keep trying to hide it behind a smile and jokes to make people laugh. I can't seem to connect with people anymore.
Sometimes I feel like I should get help but I can't seem to bring myself to do it and I think it won't help. They haven't stopped me from getting dragged back in to my spiral. I can't seem to write anymore and I can't seem to keep up with anything. My grades have been slipping and it stresses me out on top of that. I hate to be fake for people but I don't want people fawning over me saying 'OMG ARE YOU OK?' No I'm not ok. I can't be ok. I've tried. I just can't. I'm sorry KPS...

Spoiler

Oh sweetie, it must hurt so much. I'm so sorry for your loss and you don't need to apologise towards KS at all. No one is society's view of perfect and no one is expected to be happy and cheerful all the time. Often, the most cheerful people are the most broken ones. I know you think that getting help won't actually help you but, talking from experience, it helps so much. I know it feels like the adults wont be able to do much about your feelings and thoughts and it's true, they can't. But just letting them be aware of how you are feeling can be such a huge burden off your shoulders. You don't need to if you don't feel ready yet or don't want to at all of course. Just remember to take things at your own pace. We're all here for you, through your sad and happy moments. Just remember that you don't need to seem happy all the time and it's okay to be sad. The laughter will return again one day, I promise <3