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[dark_tranquility]

I feel like my 5 senses are rooted or took a dirt nap.

My vision is worse with hallucinations and voices that accompany them.
My hearing feels like I am deaf, but my mind is thinking other thoughts and it blocks out sound.
Everything tastes the same to me
and my sense of touch is so stuffed I feel people touching me, who aren't even there. :(

 

[kodoku]

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I've been told that time heals, but all time has done is let my heart ache even more. You can't put a time on how long grief lasts, but I always thought that now, nearly a year later, I would feel somewhat ok. I just... I want my best friend back. Some days it's easier, and I can just appreciate the days he was alive, or at least believe that he still is... but most days it just hurts. Emotional pain is the worst, every day it feels like I'm getting stabbed over and over again with guilt and sadness and longing. Ever since I lost him, I've been thinking and saying that it should have been me, and even now I still think that. He was the better person. He was the one who impacted so many people he met, and the person who saved me back then. There were so many times that one phone call or text from him at the right time was all that kept me living. Even now when I think I should just give up.. he's one of the people that comes to my mind and keeps me steady. I could never repay him. I wish I could have been better at expressing myself, I worry so much now. I just hope he knew how much I loved him. Ah... I didn't mean to write a sob fest. It's just now that March and the one year anniversary is approaching, I feel even worse.....

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I'm so sorry hun :(( it's so tragic indeed, to think someone is just gone forever, especially a person so wonderful... it's okay to be sad or cry.. just try to stay strong and live on in a way that will honor the person you treasure the most. I am always here to listen <3

I feel like my 5 senses are rooted or took a dirt nap.

My vision is worse with hallucinations and voices that accompany them.
My hearing feels like I am deaf, but my mind is thinking other thoughts and it blocks out sound.
Everything tastes the same to me
and my sense of touch is so stuffed I feel people touching me, who aren't even there. :(

sounds awful, I'm sorry :( I wish I could give some helpful advice but I can only offer my support....

 

[honeyfornomoney]

Here when a student graduates from high school, he throws a celebration with his family and friends. My mom asked me if we are gonna do this and I said no. Just because it sounds like too much trouble. But in the end, she gave me no options and said we have to. She asked if I'm going to invite my childhood friends... one of them passed away 4 months ago. I've never celebrated anything without him. Just then it occured to me that with my school life, the child years end too and he was part of them. I can't stand the thought of living on without him. I wish I died instead of him. He liked life. There are things I want to do, like getting a girlfriend and keep dancing. But... all of this just makes me wish I die before the time for "celebration" comes. Sometimes i think that I wouldn't mind getting hit by a truck and die instantly. But I also want to live just because of my crush. Really nothing else motivates me to live other than her and dances.

 

[kodoku]

Here when a student graduates from high school, he throws a celebration with his family and friends. My mom asked me if we are gonna do this and I said no. Just because it sounds like too much trouble. But in the end, she gave me no options and said we have to. She asked if I'm going to invite my childhood friends... one of them passed away 4 months ago. I've never celebrated anything without him. Just then it occured to me that with my school life, the child years end too and he was part of them. I can't stand the thought of living on without him. I wish I died instead of him. He liked life. There are things I want to do, like getting a girlfriend and keep dancing. But... all of this just makes me wish I die before the time for "celebration" comes. Sometimes i think that I wouldn't mind getting hit by a truck and die instantly. But I also want to live just because of my crush. Really nothing else motivates me to live other than her and dances.

so sorry for your loss... maybe you could talk to your mom and explain why you feel the way you do? I'm sure she'd understand if you said it this way.. and yea life is just hard and tiring, but please always try to have something to look forward to, some kind of goal or plan no matter how small. I've learned it's really important and helpful :)

 

[honeyfornomoney]

so sorry for your loss... maybe you could talk to your mom and explain why you feel the way you do? I'm sure she'd understand if you said it this way.. and yea life is just hard and tiring, but please always try to have something to look forward to, some kind of goal or plan no matter how small. I've learned it's really important and helpful :)

<3

 

[kodoku]

Spoiler: please ignore

I feel so sad

 

[kodoku]

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That moment when idiots in China decide to act out the real-world version of WWZ and Plague Inc. by literally being the ones who spread a virus all over the world and now, just because you look like you could be Chinese, customers at work are actively avoiding you and not being at all subtle about it -__- I haven't really been in the best of moods today

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geez people....... stay strong <3

 

[Skinnny]

Spoiler: please ignore

I feel so sad

I know you said ignore but I hope you're feeling better

 

[kodoku]

I know you said ignore but I hope you're feeling better

I can't say it's better or even the same as it was, but thank you, angel how kind of you <3 :)

 

[dark_tranquility]

I feel like crying there is an irregularity on my foot that hasn't been there and I am getting it looked at on Friday
but I still feel crappy and my mood is at an all time low. :(

nothing I can do but cry I guess ;___;

 

[kodoku]

I feel like crying there is an irregularity on my foot that hasn't been there and I am getting it looked at on Friday
but I still feel crappy and my mood is at an all time low. :(

nothing I can do but cry I guess ;___;

hopefully it's nothing and things get solved soon

 

[dark_tranquility]

hopefully it's nothing and things get solved soon

My parents didn't make a big deal out of it.
But my parents never do, when it involves their kid.

I wish my family was more supportive.

 

[Mayday]

why.

 

[kodoku]

why.

I'm here if you wanna talk about it ❤

 

[Mayday]

I'm here if you wanna talk about it ❤

💙💙

 

[Mayday]

things do eventually get better

back on my bs 😎 😎 😎

 

[MinSquishy]

In poem form.

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5 fingers...
Holding dearly to not float away.

4 fingers...
Being pulled away, darkness blurring.

3 fingers...
Heart pounding. Head screaming.

2 fingers...
Slowly losing it all.

1 finger...
The last heart broken.

Not floating, but falling.

Going...
Going...

Gone.

 

[kodoku]

In poem form.

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5 fingers...
Holding dearly to not float away.

4 fingers...
Being pulled away, darkness blurring.

3 fingers...
Heart pounding. Head screaming.

2 fingers...
Slowly losing it all.

1 finger...
The last heart broken.

Not floating, but falling.

Going...
Going...

Gone.

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sounds pretty and unique, I hope you are taking care of yourself as well as you can and that this storm passes soon...

 

[MinSquishy]

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sounds pretty and unique, I hope you are taking care of yourself as well as you can and that this storm passes soon...

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I try, but it still seems to hurt more and more.

 

[kodoku]

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I try, but it still seems to hurt more and more.

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trust in time hun, and you can always write to me <3