You have your reasons for reacting like that, and they're valid. Stay safe.
Is there someone you can call so you feel less alone?
thank you, it helps to know i'm not acting completely out of my mind. my mom said i was overreacting when i called her and so she hung up, my best friend's boyfriend is having a trying time and needs attention, and my boyfriend is at a game night. i know my boyfriend wouldn't mind if i interrupt him, but he deserves some downtime and to have fun and it's not his job to take care of me constantly or make sure i'm alright. i don't want to bother him or be a burden. so i'm not certain what to do, other than i'm trying the typical coping skills i have to lessen the anxiety. i'm sorry for rambling, i just was freaked out and had no one to talk to and even just getting it all out helps a tad bit. i'm very thankful for this thread and for people like you. thanks for being nice. i'll be alright eventually^^"