Official Post Your Random Thoughts (150 Viewers)

[yeji]

I am feeling so lazy today

 

[lexus]

Kind want to change my aesthetic again, but I also like my sig too much to do so.

 

[SeulPika]

Finally back on rice duty after burning it the last time around and this time I've cooked it to perfection

 

[lexus]

Took an impromptu nap today and it was nice.

 

[PWSwan]

Since I'll never get the badge I want, should I even bother posting?

 

[baekk]

I love the BTS version of we don't talk anymore, so much

 

[baekk]

Since I'll never get the badge I want, should I even bother posting?

You will get a badge, don't worry keep posting

 

[Lovely_Cornchips]

It’s like weird because like I was abused but not like to the severity of what is typically known or shown within media so like it’s hard to explain the struggle of dealing with being near my father and not having this SEVERE trauma that other victims may have but like I get…

Angry. Just angry out of nowhere.

Sometimes I feel like I can’t breathe. Like his presence is a weight that is just pressing on me and like he’s a predator waiting to pounce even though he hasn’t laid hands on me for years.

I can’t be near him for too long. It’s like needles are being pushed under my skin and like I can’t breathe.

I don’t have nightmares. I have very subtle triggers that are very rarely ever spurred on so it’s almost like I don’t even have them.

It’s just…and it’s like I think I’m ok because it’s been so LONG. But then I’m just suddenly angry again. Mad again. It’s irrational.

I can never tell if it’s normal to be so…mad or if it’s because of what he’s done to me.

And like it’s obvious he’s trying to get close to me but like sometimes I’m ok with it and other times I just get mad…and upset…and it’s like I suddenly can’t forget certain things that other times will fade from my memory.

I don’t get it.

 

[Mayday]

It is a thought. It keeps me up at night. Do not delete this.

 

[kodoku]

It’s like weird because like I was abused but not like to the severity of what is typically known or shown within media so like it’s hard to explain the struggle of dealing with being near my father and not having this SEVERE trauma that other victims may have but like I get…

Angry. Just angry out of nowhere.

Sometimes I feel like I can’t breathe. Like his presence is a weight that is just pressing on me and like he’s a predator waiting to pounce even though he hasn’t laid hands on me for years.

I can’t be near him for too long. It’s like needles are being pushed under my skin and like I can’t breathe.

I don’t have nightmares. I have very subtle triggers that are very rarely ever spurred on so it’s almost like I don’t even have them.

It’s just…and it’s like I think I’m ok because it’s been so LONG. But then I’m just suddenly angry again. Mad again. It’s irrational.

I can never tell if it’s normal to be so…mad or if it’s because of what he’s done to me.

And like it’s obvious he’s trying to get close to me but like sometimes I’m ok with it and other times I just get mad…and upset…and it’s like I suddenly can’t forget certain things that other times will fade from my memory.

I don’t get it.

hmm I think the reason why you keep going back and forth and changing is because it isn't really over for you even though you say he doesn't act that way anymore. The hurt and resentment might still linger in you. I wonder if you have expressed them and dealt with them properly? because I don't think you can let go and be free until you do. I personally had a difficult relationship with my father as well and we never talked it out, just buried it all and I can still feel the damage and burden at times even though I'd say I moved on.. so I really recommend talking to him if he is calmer now, or maybe even writing him a letter or something, it would also be good if someone trustworthy was there to support you. best of luck <3

 

[quinby]

Why is it every time I attempt to read a YA novel with a female protag she's always an annoying moron. Every time.

 

[Abeamus]

Since I'll never get the badge I want, should I even bother posting?

What badge are you after? I'm pretty sure you could get a Psy badge

 

[Kelly]

The last month has been so exhausting and I feel like I need a decade of rest-

 

[kodoku]

sigh why couldn't I just say no? now I have a random dude's number and I have to deal with this situation and I really have no interest in that sigh. WHY is it always only men I don't like???????? I'm really gonna die alone....... :/

 

[kodoku]

the more I think, the more unhappy I get... this is how I am when I'm too tired, I should just go sleep...

 

[Seolhyun]

I KNOW HER BOOTY STINK 🤮

 

[melancholia]

It is a thought. It keeps me up at night. Do not delete this.

I-

 

[raymondchouku]

Its important to think about the things that we have that others do not... Its Cliche, but true. As my Xbox One green screen appears with the logo I am reminded of this. We often think of what we want and don't have, but maybe we should think of the things we do have that others don't...

I have a Samsung 32" Smart TV; Two computers; A 3-in-1 Printer; 3 Consoles; A Samsung Tablet and Phone.

Perhaps its time to be a tad grateful.

 

[Foxia]

I parked the car in our busy street and I'm proud lol

 

[Kahoru]

I felt like I'd never catch up with all the updates on D1CE's thread BUT, I have finished and I'm glad.
Now, I gotta work on the OP but alas, I shall wait for a bit of creativity. Which may never happen, to be honest.